Linden's

2010-08-17T11:51:00.001-07:00

MOVED - www.lindenlah.tumblr.com

Thank you post

2010-08-08T11:00:00.000-07:00

Thank you Father Jesus.
Thank you Gayle Gan.
Thank you my friends.
Thank you for those who stay beside me and constantly giving me encouragement.
Although I'm always acted like a bastard but your stayed through my life and sharing your Joy with me.
Thanks Sistas and Brothas. !

WHY?!

2010-08-06T23:38:00.000-07:00

I'm so fucking tired of poly life.
Friends that don't give a damn to anything.
Always hide their feelings, wearing a mask in front of me.
On the other side, I was forced to do the same.

AH-HA who cares?
Since they want to do this in this way.
Then I don't have a choice.
Well I have less critics for them and I began to think twice before I blurted out anything.
Beginning to change.

Anyway I went back to my secondary school on friday.
I wanna see how much the band had progress.
Well, its improving but there's something missing in TWband.
Maybe souls? I don't enjoy as much as I do before.
Maybe I didn't play flute for a long time. HAHA
Gotta go back to band soon.
NDP is finally come to the end.
I hope everything will go smoothly from now onwards.
There's not much negativity inside me.
I'm happy as who I am now.
I will change to a happy guy.
Of course, I can't change completely now but I will try :D

Awwman, I miss my secondary school friends.
I wondered when can we go out again.

After so long...

2010-08-02T05:13:00.000-07:00

It seem so long since I post.
I know I know, stop complaining.
I also hope that I got that time to post things that I'm sad or happy about.
It's a long day today.

Miss Emily Nair's guidance finally comes to an end.
I will miss her man, she's funny, she's good and most importantly.
She's herself.
Nowadays younsters are so not to themselves.
Must blame the society.
As days passed, it seem even harder to realise things around us.
Today I was angry at myself fo being so stupid.
Why?
I always care too much about my friend.
As I previously mentioned in my blog, i tried to change for them.
However, they..
I live for myself not for them. I care so much about their feeling then who care about my feelings?
Its always them together.
I'm always the odd one out.
I try not to think too much.
But sometimes, action speaks louder than words.
They hurt me deeply.
I ask you what if you are the odd one out now?
Of course, you don't know that feeling.
You are always have friends around you.
Encouraging you.
for me, I encourage myself to be independant.
But I can't survive poly years without friends.
I will try again and try again...
I refused to give up.
I promised myself to be cheerful too.
And I will do that. C:
A strong person always have a smile on his face.

300th post

2010-07-27T07:37:00.000-07:00

Firstly, I've to changed.
After reading Huda's blog.
Yes I'm angry because I can't be myself but I'm more sad than angry.
I guess I've to be mature already.
Stop acting like a spoiled brat.

I don't wanna lose friends again because of my bloody mouth which thousands of bloody daggers come out and stab people with it.
I guess, I've to put that remark down.

Well, it's actually a defensive weapon to me as well as weapon to me.
Because it happened a long long time ago, maybe the dinosaurs era.
I was being bullied by these monsters.
They're strong and in numbers.
I can't fight them all by myself.
And thus, I developed a weapon against them to shut their torturing mouth.
Finally till now, I'm still using that weapon to fight enemies.
And in that process, I hurt my friends too.
I'm a straightforward person who doesn't use brains to talk.

Nevertheless, after talking to Xue Feng really made my day happier.
I realised a lot of things I shouldn't say or done.
Lots of things that I thought it will be okay to let it all out but I was wrong.
Sometimes, words that you say may mean nothing to you but the rest is a lot to handle.
Sometimes, you have spared a thought for them.
I know its nice to be straightforward but sometimes being too straightforward is also not that nice as well.
But be careful of not being too sarcastic too. C:
I really learned a lot today.
What Huda did was correct in most way but I wished she should post it earlier so that I can wake up.
Anyway, I still owed my sistas a apology as well as a thank you.
Because they really slapped me hard.
Made me face the reality.
Chase away my negative thoughts and darkness around me.
Now to me, they're my sunshine.
A emotion, A motivation that made me want to study with them, play with them, gossip with them and most importantly understanding them.

But I do hope that they will accept my apology and also accept who am I really am before.
Because of what am I before, it taught me a valuable lesson.
A lesson that everybody needs to learn.
Of course, no one is perfect but accepting their imperfections makes you a better person.
My friends did the same to me and I guess its my turn to return the favor.

I want to be there for them when they're moody, sad, pissed or anything.
I want to be best friends forever with them.
I want to do things with them that we've never done before.

I'm grateful because I've friends like them.
Thank you God.
I realised that I took this damn long to figure things out.
HUDA ! though you scold me in your blog, I did mind a little but overall I know that you are helping me. (Positive thinking C:)

So in conclusion, true friends does not always come and go easily. They stick with you, they scold you when you're wrong, they cry with you when you sad, they laugh with you when you're happy. As long as I'm happy, they're happy too.

To conclude my conclusion in this 300th post, I just wanna say, things is going to be okay one day. Instead of using words to hurt your friends, why not think of ways to make your friends laugh and joke about.

Fate brings your to me and I will treasure it.
And to one person that I once hated: Sorry Bro, I promised that I will be cheerful like the 1st day you met me. You told me I'm your first friend in NYP that you can trust on. I will hold that faith and make things go round again. What am I talking about? Anyway, I will do everything to make you my best buddy again. (I hope so) yah think so.

Toodles !

Tireddd

2010-07-24T20:37:00.000-07:00

Never knew humans can be such disgustig creatures.
My judgement is wrong, my faith is wrong.
Gosh what can go wrong next?
Pretty EMO these few days.
I called it the "bad days"

I don't know why life is pretty sucky these few weeks.
Thoughts of ending my life came to me a lot.
But do you think I will go suicide.
Never in a million years.
I still got things undone.
LIKE confessing to the one I like for almost 4 years.
The power of loving someone so secretly is so powerful.
No matter how hard you try to look for others or accept others.
There is still this pieces of memories in my heart.
I guess I don't have the chance to confess.
I'm so envy of Huda that she has the courage to confess to Mingyong.

These few days really marked the my friendship with my sistas.
Events such as almost losing my dearest secret partner and a friend of mine.
Events such as I began to stepping away from my friend.
Luckily I didn't managed to lose my singing partner.
However, Huda told me that "I thought you're closer to XF or Dyah"
I said "No.."
I mean yes, I'm close with them especially Dyah but I'm also close with you HUDA.
You see, we actually spend a lot more time together in school such as GSM and tons of stupid horny things, sometimes we even eat spicy kuay teow together. :D
Even yesterday or the day before, I can't remember it.
I told you something isn't it and you encouraged me.
THANKS !

Anyway life still goes on, I still don't like class except
XF, Dyah, Huda, Shanice, Huixuan, Nadhira, Ronnie, Wee keng, Gayle, Christine (surprised eh), Desiree, Idah, Lorenzo.. aiya I might as well say who I don't like in class... huijun, jiayi, robin, munwah and rachel.

To them I only have one word. "Whatever"
PS: I don't hate them, I just don't like them.

Does this counted as annoying?

2010-07-16T06:39:00.000-07:00

Its been like days since I blogged..
So I'm going to vent all my anger since I've already privated my blog.
Hmm where should I start ?

Okay let me start with one person in class.
Christine...
Seriously I don't know whats going on with her.
Rushing all the work and projects?
What ?! The time not enough for youuuuuuuu?
huh ?! huh ?! huh ?! Do you ?! Do you ?!
Pissing my balls all the time.
Why does she like to jump to conclusion and claims that she is right all the time.

D.I.S.G.U.S.T.I.N.G

Anyway, my life is still not baddd.
Nothing major happened except for the stress part.
I cried fo 2 hours straight, thinking stupid stuffs once again.
I'm still happy and begin to think less.
My friends somehow can tolerate my nonsense.
But they're still very nice friends, so I think I should bully them more. xD

However there are still knots in my heart that I wanna entangle it.
Maybe perhaps, its time to find a partner :D
Let's just hope for the best.

Bless you Jesus who is the one Blessing me instead. C:

not normal

2010-07-12T05:02:00.000-07:00

My heart is indeed crying, I can hear it.

Life is short yet so torturing for me.

I finally close my blog just like my heart is finally close.

I'm so sad and stress.

I want to cry so badly.

So badly..

I'm envy of them.

All of them.

People criticise me for what I done.

I'm not perfect.

I'm always the one struggling.

Cheerful on the outside, crying on the inside.

I don't want this things to happen.

Jesus.. I know you love everyone.

But can I accept your love?

I' don't think I'm ready.

My future have already been set for me by you like Gayle said.

But I'm experiencing all this pain myself.

Xue Feng got Nadiah.

Nadiah got her boyfriend.

Huda got her beloved friends.

I'm the one who is left uncared.

I decided to be strong and cheerful

But all these tests that god given me is so tough.

Will I go hell?

I'm full of sadness and hateness and jealousy.

295th post

2010-07-06T07:51:00.000-07:00

I just love holga cameras.
The effect on the picture is like so damn nice.

Today was a normal and sleepy day ASS USUAL.
It was a pleasant day where I keep sleeping and sleeping during lectures.
The lectures was boring and I couldn't help not sleeping.
I'm so pissed at myself that I couldn't focus during lectures.

Anyway, I company Nadiah to watch his boyfriend's football match.
We have randoms thoughts and chats.
HEHE, had fun chatting with her.
Nadiah told me something shocking because she smoke before.
I really hate smoking and the smell of it.
I can't stand it.

Anyway the SISTAS GANG wear all black today.
hahahahaha its like so random ?!
Its such a concidence.
We didn't planned to wear black today and yet..
we all wear black. :DD woohoo
Really adored them ttm, I'm pretty sure.

The projects season is still not yet over and yet the GSS is over.
Damn it, no more cheap stuffs but more stuffs that crack our brains.
Anyway, that guy who said Nadiah big head is a pea-brain. O:<

End of post : tanqueraysion.bs

Potatoes Head

2010-06-29T06:28:00.000-07:00

I love the Potatoes Head Family :DD

Exams and more projects are coming up right up.
I definitely need to de-stress myself just in case of a information overload incident.

Had a enjoyable time with Dyah, Xue Feng and Huda. :DDDD
Max love with them. (:
Gonna mug hard now.

Anger

2010-06-27T07:00:00.000-07:00

True friends will stay by your side.
Help you when you're in need.
However, but by not telling us you're not our friend.
I'm sick and tired of playing this little game with you.
When you're sad u post it on facebook.
We ask if you're okay.. and you said nothing or I'm fine.
Yah fine, my ass.. obviously you're not fine.
You're lying to yourself as well as lying to us.

Yes, I know that you may not seem to trust us yet but think for god sake.
You're neither helping yourself or your friends.
Why do we ask whether you're fine? For fun?
We're friends and thats why !
Trustworthy friends doesn't seem to come all the time as you wish.
Its fate that we are meant to be friends.
Do you think its pretty easy to find a trustworthy soul?
Definitely not.
Sometimes, you gotta take risk and mixed with friends.
There is only two answers when u take risk.
You will lose that friend or you will keep that friend.
Simple as that, and remember perhaps losing that friend can be a lesson learnt to you.
I already lose quite a number of friends because they did bad things behind my back and after I found out what happened? that friend is no longer our friend.

I got one example.. Sally got into trouble and a man wanted to beat her up.
Natalie immediately stand infront of the man. so instead of Sally, she was the one who got beaten up. and what did Sally do? she did nothing but sit like one motherfucker watching her friend got beaten up. Since then, Sally and Natalie are not friends anymore. This is a real situation where friendship are being tested. (Sally and Natalie are fake names btw)

To the others, I don't give a damn whether you're true to me a not..
Don't like me, get out of my sight and leave me alone.
Stop acting like you're my best friends and give me nicknames that I don't even approve.
If you think that you're the one I'm talking about..
Come ask me and I will definiely tell you the truth.
I'm tired of lying to myself also and I want to be as true to myself as possible.

I don't give a fuck to those who doesn't really wants to be my friend and act like one. Tell me if you don't like me, don't let me keep getting the wrong idea. In return, I will get out of your sight.

I may be a childish infant in your eyes but I do believe in myself.
Stop being so fake too.
Joke around with me but talking behind my back.
I don't hate the term backstabbers because I do backstab behind people's back.

I do have friends who really stand by side and I stand by hers.
Just like what I did to my friend.
She was being accused and blamed.
I stand by her, helping her against the bad guys.
But if my friend is in wrong, I will scold her myself.

End of post : PS (THIS POST IS POSTED TO LET THOSE FAKE FRIENDS OF MINE TO STOP ACTING IN FRONT OF ME.) good day people :D

Not again!

2010-06-23T21:48:00.001-07:00

A day like no any other, wake up late ASS USUAL!
I was kinda lazy to do my assignments.
Furthermore I was like so so so so negative.
I was having mixed feelings again.
Afraid to tell my friends, I went to Jasmine's house.

Told her what happened,
and now we're playing maple..
I bought my homework here but I was kinda distracted by her.
Disgusting lah, so pissed at myself because I lack of motivation.
Omigod, I'm left with 4 assignments including projects.
Can I finish it on time?
I think I can because I know there are people out there who hasn't even started. Laugh-out-loud. Just a joke.
C'mon guys we gotta buck-up.

After holidays, National Day Performance and YOG is coming.
Exams are also round the corner.
Damn it, I'm getting all stress out.
I gotta start my revision and I gotta slim down.
People say I'm fatter. SHAGS, IF I'M FAT, THEN WHATS XUE FENG?
xD damn it, I'm so bad.

Anyway as I was saying, life is still not bad for me for now.
I'm sure tml is even a better day than today.

End of Post : I love Avril Lavigne <3

Some thoughts.

2010-06-22T22:08:00.001-07:00

Ass usual, Andric is late because he's overslept.

I'm like so freaking bored now.

Going ice-skating later at Kallang.

Let's just hope that the entrance fee is not that expensive.

Well I got lots of time to spare.

Why not a little story I came through.

There was this little boy who was strolling at the park with his mother.

He saw something that caught his attention.

There was this two men kissing.

He asked his mother, "why are they kissing?"

His mother replied, " Because they're in love"

That moment, the mother had taught his son that,

Homosexuality was okay.

Well quite sentimental but quite true.

In some countries, homosexuality was a sin.

Many of them are discriminated.

Some of them went to jail, some are sentenced to death.

Yes logically, homosexuality was never right.

God didn't make us that way.

But many of them didn't have a choice.

Homosexuality was never a choice.

Well I don't discriminate lesbians or gay.

They have their own rights.

How do I know?

Because I've Gay and Lesbians friends.

And most of them are my best friends.

Changed

2010-06-22T09:19:00.001-07:00

Changed my blogskin.

Hehe satisfied with the result or the outcome.

Anyway since I've changed my blogskin, i might as well write some new wishes or resolution for next few months whatever you call it...

I definitely need to excel in my studies.
I definitely need to stop playing online games.
I want more friends.
I hope that there is no dispute among or class.
CASH $.$
A new cool design school bag (Best when you have Avril on it)
I want to go ZOO.
I want a new hairstyle.
More clothes.
No negative thoughts.
Watch movies with my Sistas.
Avril Lavigne to hug me tightly and whisper HH to me.(WEE!)
Go church.
Outing with my buddies - Shiying, Crystal and Andric.
Ice skating
Roller blade
Sleep
FOOD
Avril lavigne Album to come out fast.
Avril lavigne come to Singapore.
Nadiah to last long with Ali BaBa.
Xue feng to find her True Love
Huda to be with FF.
Stay Happy as always. :D

Scape Event

2010-06-20T10:49:00.000-07:00

Hello wondering who this actress is? Ali Larter who acted in Final Destination, Heroes and the upcoming movie Resident Evil : AfterLife. She is truly a beauty in hollywood. One of my favourite stars. Anyway recently I was ask or volunteer to help out at scape. It is truly a magnificent event that bring youths together to celebrate the grand opening of the SCAPE. Anyway before I proceed talking about the SCAPE events. I need to say something first.

This is my babe, Wong Xue Feng. As from the picture you can see, she isn't all that tall. She is very short and famous for her BHB-ness. She is a fun loving girl and she will always be my BFF. She knows everything about me, close to understand me. I' know most of her secrets, maybe... As I was saying no matter what happeneed, she will always be there for me.

But this is not the main point, from the picture above you can see two foreigners and XF (Xuefeng). Xue feng and I was in a middle of challenge. By taking photos with foreigners. Seems easy but Easier to say than done. However, Xf manage to find one but.. the lady with the black dress, she resembles someone... and thats ali larter. OMIGOD!! I don't know whether it was her a not but I'm so jealous!! I was the photographer btw. It was so unfair. If its Ali LARTER, I'm so gonna kill XF! So jealous can?!

So I take measures. Due to my jealousy, I erase her from the picture. hahah but I didn't put my photo in because I was lazy to photoshop anyway. Look at the picture, I feel so much better already. :DD

Scape event was very sucessful.

Celebrities such as Dai yang tian and Nat ho attended the event.

En Lai and Irene Ang aslo attended the events.

Ofc not forgetting the ministers.

However...Two Words. - NOT INTERESTED.

I was more interested for the fireworks and the release of balloons ceremony.

Anyway I had fun camwhoring my class and I.

It was so much fun and ofc a memorable one.

We had dinner together that cost me 11 bucks.

We cracked lots of jokes.

And ofc went shopping w/o money.

Which means w/o money = cannot buy a single shirt.

I'm so broke nowadays.

Anyway I' still got spiltting headaches due to assignments and others.

I can't afford to waste anymore time and yet I'm still fb-ing and blogging.

not bad linden.

HUDA - don't say that you're ugly. In my eyes you're always beautiful. no matter what they say, words can't bring you downnn... you're so beautiful. And I hope you can find your true love. HAHAHS!

NADIAH - NUTS! Tyvm for your everything, (concern + unconditional love) for me. I'm so grateful I've a friend like you. :DD

Xue Feng - SHORTTIE + PAPAYA + MISS UNIVERSE. I also must thank you for everything. AIYA in conclusion, XF, NUTS, ADAM LAMBERT you 3 will be sistas forever... I hope so..

End of post.

A Joke

2010-06-17T06:54:00.000-07:00

I'm posting this because I'm totally bored and i need a break while I was doing my tutorials and projects..

A few days ago, someone just spammed my blog.
A anonymous user by the name of PASSERBY spammed my blog.
Apparently she has issues..

Firstly, If I do post about you, you will feel really honoured, or maybe you shouldn't. Well my thoughts at first, I didn't even thought of posting you. Well since I've got the time right now, i might as well just comment about you then. I love entertaining teenagers who have the mindset of a children.. erm no... infant would be a better word to describe people like you.

I assume you're a girl because most of the guys don't comment with such sacarsm. Well if you have issues of me posting about myself, please kindly fuck off. Do I look I care about what you say? You're not my friend anyway.
And my blog to you is THE JOKE OF THE YEAR. Well most of friends who have common sense thinks that you're JOKE OF THE YEAR. Sad to say, I assume your friends thinks the same way too as my friends too. :D

Apparently, you didn't have much trustworthy and caring friends as much as I have. Kinda pity your life anyway. My friends were saying this "This PASSERBY is somehow a coward, a disgusting creature who would rather hide behind her computer/lappy. Have issues? meet up and talk but I'm sad to say i don't think you have the balls to meet me anyway.

I told my friends try not to comment about it because such childish mindset teenager is not worthy to spend your time ranting and commenting about her nonsense.

However I still need to thank you because your comments taught me a lessons. There are still friends who cared about me. And you? EEWWW Go away man. I pity your friends because they've such a friend like you.

Do you believe in Karma? Well I do.. Lets just say.. I believe that your life would not be as enriching as mine. hahas.. I believe your personality must have caused many dispute or whatever. Well good luck on that one.

Believe it or not, I love entertaining you as much as you do. I have the time anyway. I wondered why are you acting like that.. lack of love perhaps? You want me to teach you how to love or care? I assume your parents has given up hope teaching you anyway. No offence to your parents. Your parents are just fine as the way they are now.

Anyway if you do spammed my blog, I should be honoured.. oh wait.. I shouldn't. I supposed you're gonna comment back or? oh well. I will only post you one time and thats all. Spam all you want. I don't wanna waste my time on you again. :D

My advice to you, you need a counsellor more than I am. :D

ECP

2010-06-16T09:15:00.000-07:00

HF 2010 BBQ was successful.

Couldn't have done it w/o my sistas' help.

It was raining heavily in the morning so I was kinda lazy to wake up.

The BBQ was located at East Coast Park which I had no idea how to get there. I've to depend on my sistas to bring me there. It was a long journey there and the ground was wet and the sun is scorching hot. It seems like the weather is having its PMS or something. The weather is so unpredictable.

We had long walk over to our pit. The food didn't arrived on time which kinda pissed me off. Wee Kiat and Robin did help me to carry the food. Ronnie and his friend, Jeanette was busy taking photos of me and the others. :DD

Huijun help to start the fire and she's damn good at it. If I were there, at most i can only cook food for my friends and yes I did that. Busy cooking, eating and posing in front of the camera at the same time. The food was delicious.

Night time, went to rent a bike with my sistas and weekiat. We were having so much fun riding it and XF was drunk. She's was laughing all the while. Huda was clumsy enough to hit the tree while riding the bike. And guess what, she hurt her pussy. The sky was beautiful with stars sparkling here and there and yet there was this horny couple in front of us. We did heard the girl moan and they were like kiss-ing non-stop. Gross but entertaining.

Anyway I'm damn tired to post the rest. :DD

so toodle...

I hate post part 2,

2010-06-07T22:50:00.000-07:00

I hate _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
I hate poly life all of the sudden.
I hate _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
I hate the life that was given to me.
I hate going home alone.
I hate the examinations.
I hate myself whom I know I can work hard to achieve even better results.
I hate people who keep show off about how good they are.
I hate those people those who doesn't know when to stop all the nonsense.
I hate all the projects that was given to me.
I hate backstabbers.
I hate people who only care about being popular among the crowd.
I hate people who keep pushing me when I'm inside the MRT.
I hate people who obviously have no common sense.
I hate people who thought they're queen yet they're not.
I hate people who likes to give excuses.
I hate lie-ing and its just getting bigger and bigger.
I hate my life. FML
I hate being rejected.
I hate to reject nice people.
I hate people who didn't care about those who are feeling.
I hate being selfish when I know I don't because of this world we're living at.
I hate to scold vulgarities.
I hate to trouble my friends when I needed help.
I hate being emotional.
I hate to organised events because its tiring.

What done is done

2010-06-07T15:25:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was like a complete waste of time to go to school.
There's no lesson in the morning because Ms Nair was on MC, and POA teacher couldn't make it in the afternoon either. But this is not the main point, we were not told that Monday doesn't have any lessons so we ended wasting our time and effort to come to school when we can sleep like pig during that period of time.

After that, my gang went to sing KTV for the first time, it was fun and I had a very enjoyable time there. Reached home, I was already drained and i don't have the energy to study for my POA test but no worries, I wake up in the morning just to do it. And I'm fully equip with skills and prepared to go to war.

Anyway I'm still very depressed about things around me but I'm sure the road ahead of me will be much easier, i just to to graduate fast and go to NS and go to work. Thats all for now.. As for relationship, that can wait. Career first.

D:

2010-06-06T08:34:00.000-07:00

Rantings

2010-06-01T06:55:00.000-07:00

Life is still going good for me for now. I got ICAs for this damn week. Monday was effective writing skills, today is MacroEconomics which I doubt i will score well. Tomorrow is Business software application. Thursday is Statistic Theory For Business. Next monday is POA.

Anyway let me say about life this few days. One word to describe. "Bad"
I'm like thinking of negative thoughts again but I still managed to act like myself for a little these few days thanks to my Sistas. However I discovered that my crazy and wicked laughter is disappearing. I wondered what really happened. Is it stress or mainly just me? I began to think less (which is a good thing) but laugh less. When I was in Secondary School, everyday was like crazy with Sarena, Jasmine, Farah, Faeka etc. But nowadays its just getting lesser and lesser. And I'm totally afraid of that. I love laughing, its a must to do thing everyday. I still remember laughing alone in a bus too. But now, i just frown or daze at the space at times. I hope that I'm not changing again. It totally freak me out.

Anyway new friends, new school means new beginning. I've to accept the reality and move on and on. Another stage of life had began long ago. This journey is tougher and longer. There's bound to be pain, fear and happiness everyday and everywhere. It's impossible to hide from reality. At this age, we tends to think for our future and perhaps romance.

As you know I'm a scorpio and scorpio are well-known for emotional creatures. Yes its true, I'm emotional. When my friends feel sad, I will also feel the same way as them. However the evil side will tell me, "but when you're sad, will they feel sad too?" Sometimes, or maybe just me I feel isolated. So lonely. Even though my friendsare beside me, I will just feel lonely. Perhaps I didn't participate? That may be the reason why I feel lonely. But I feel so terrible. Maybe I should really go Gayle's church to experience the fun and love over there. I hope its not to late to start a relationship with Jesus. Hahas, I can hear my christian friends saying: "Its never too late".

When I grow up, I wanna be famous, I wanna be a star and I wanna in movies and many more. LOL lyrics from pussycat dolls. It should be this way. When I grow up, I want care for people, I want to adopt children who are in pain and suffering. They motivates me a lot. I want them to experience the Joy I've experienced before. That dream may be far from me but I know that dream is close to my heart. I don't think i will give up.
Of course that have to depend on my carrer. So I've to start saving up. Every cents counts.

Anyway What I really need now is to lead a normal and peaceful life. I need motivation as well. All these thoughts are randomly picked from my head. I'm tired and I hope I can just sleep for eternity. (: Anyway my post meant that, it doesn't mean that people say you're something, means you're one. Its only matters how YOU think of yourself. E.g. It doesn't mean people said I'm Sissy/Gay means you're one. It only matter when I think of myself.

FML

2010-05-26T07:37:00.000-07:00

I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I got my friends. Its always hurts me to keep thinking FUCKING negative stuffs all the time. I love my friends. Why Why Why! What What What?! I can't understand. I can't really keep holding on... Fuck Fuck Fuck.. What I wish is something small. Just help me let go and move on. I can't I can't. I want to go church to see Jesus. can he help me? I want this fucking brain of mine to stop thinking negatively. What result in me today is my primary school friends. To me you all are my nightmare. why do you have to make me so sensitive? why do you have to crush the most little hope I held in my hands? Why do you blaming me when I did nothing wrong? Why do you have to keep insulting me? Why can't your understand me and accept me? Why am I always the wrong and not you. Why can't I have a twin? Why do i have to keep burden my friends? Why do you have to keep hurting me? Why can't I be strong? why can't be honest to myself? What is it that caused the world it is today? I need to see a counsellor. I need their help. People told me I will bless when I grow up. Is that true? or it was just a comment to encourage me?

Torturing...

FML

2010-05-26T07:29:00.000-07:00

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Nature will take its course

2010-05-25T08:51:00.000-07:00

Nature will take its course.

I lost my thumbdrive.
I have go for training again. IDIOTs!
Thanks Xuefeng.
And I love HUDA's bitchness.
I love my class.
Rachel please take care of yourself.
Drink lots of water.
Nadiah pls physically count and confirm with us whether its 8 seconds.
Ronnie don't stress yourself.
Weiyi please take care of yourself and open your eyes BIG so that you can walk properly. Yours eyes are big for some purposes.
Blah >.< I hate life.

Friendship

2010-05-20T08:22:00.000-07:00

I
Thought
I
Was
In
The
Darkness.

This post is to dedicate to my friends who fucking care about me.
I will not be unhappy anymore. I want to be true to myself.

Xuefeng- Thank you so much for advicing me. Although I know that fool still haven't confessed his feelings towards you but soon.. he will be yours.
Xuefeng i regret not knowing you and talk to you during my orientation. i regret not making good friends to you, but now I know and I'll treasure it. If you are in trouble, I swear I will help you no matter what. ( but that doesn't mean financial support. )

Nadiah- I read your blog and I was so touched. yes I need to find that damn locked key to lock up my mind or something. No more negative thinking... Positive thinking all the way. I can't afford to waste your time worrying about me. We should be Happy! WE SHOULD!

Gayle- THANK YOU FOR YOUR SMS, you know how touched am I. I'm sorry to let you see my ugly side. You are really a good girlfriend. Cheers to our friendship.

Lastly, WEIYI- MY DEAREST AND DEAREST AND DEAREST LADY. thank you so much. And you know how i feel towards you, today u encourage me and I'll never forget. You know maybe next time, I could encourage you? You know we've been friends for the past 4 years but for the next 50 years, i want us to be lovers. :DD

SAD

2010-05-19T23:34:00.000-07:00

I REALLY CANNOT STAND IT ANYMORE!!

Moral Lessons to be learnt

2010-05-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

Its Human nature to feel sad, angry, happy, jealous and many more.
These are the things that I or you always felt most of the time.
When people start judging you, are u gonna take it to heart or not?
Maybe, perhaps? We don't know.
Sometimes, its just hard not to be angry about that your friends comments.
Sometimes, its just hard not to be sad about your friends comments.
Me, myself, I felt that I can't take it when people comment about me.
Its a fear.
However what done is done and they've inflicted the pain to me.
Unbearable!
So fear and pain grew, Hate forms.

Hating a person is okay but its tiring.
I'm sure everyone knows that but for me its hard.
Its hard to not hate someone u dislike but its even harder when you can't let go off it. I remember hating a guy so much that it irks me when I see my friends get closer with him. My hate grew over the past few years. i tried to frame him, isolate him, destroyed him. When I see him in agony, I feel so happy. But over the years, The feeling of hate for him had finally come to an end but that doesn't mean I like him.

These few days at my new Poly, I was experiencing so much hate and so much happiness and sadness.

Desiree, my classmate for e.g. We all know that she is vain, care about how she look like and she is as blur as a sotong at FIRST. Few weeks ago, if you wondered why Desiree posted negative comments on her facebook. Thats was me who told her, she deserves the truth. I talk to her and I realised something, she wasn't the person I think right from the start. She just want to be herself, honest to herself and her friends.

Ronnie, my classmates. Is popular in my class. And yes I was jealous. I' began to hate him as well but I couldn't bring myself to do so because he is a nice friend. Sometimes, I was very sensitive. In other words, think too much. It was never a good thing to think too much. I hate it a lot.

A guy like me, Linden Liow is never a good first impression. Everyone's first impression of me is different. Different from normal guys. Yes I know that problem myself..

Firstly about myself. I'm a sensitive, jealous, think too much, care about what people say about me, Talkative, troublesome, irritating, possesive and perhaps even more? I was never a good friend to be rely on.

Even till now, I'm still afraid of people saying about me. I tried to encourage myself, Just be YOURSELF. which I can't do all the time. I don't want to lose another friend. I'm too scared of being lonely all the time. I was afraid to be push back into the darkness. AND FEAR AND PAIN KEEP GROWING, INTO A AMOUNT YOU CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBE, A FEELING SO STRONG THAT FINALLY, I stopped and think that Suicide was the only solution.

I wondered why humanity have to be like this. I was also jealous of Desiree's being honest about herself. Me? I can't... My friends ask me why my blog is always so over the negative side. I told them, Blog is never a good tool to spread happiness for me, it is a only a tool for anger and agony for me. I can't be true to myself.

When friends care for me, I possess their careness. Thats why when friends cared about me and ask what happened... I was never to give them the truth cause once i told them, I possess them and wanted more from them. I don't want my problem to be their problem.

Morons

2010-05-12T00:05:00.000-07:00

Morons! How do you feel when people reject you for a fucking lame reason? I'm so angry with Jasmine. Today, I was feeling frustrated, a bit do-not-mess-with-me feeling so I wanted someone who understands me to have lunch with me. Just a nice and simple meal will do. so first thought, Jasmine. I sms-ed her and she said she was lazy and didn't want to go out. okay fine, let her be.

So I went to weiyi, who she said that she had pizza hut yesterday which I totally understand. Who wants to eat pizza again?! so with no other choice I thought of eating alone myself but suddenly I saw a flower and I knew who I can call. Sheree, my previous ex-girlfriend.

She agreed to meet me upfor lunch so after class, I went to meet Dave and Sheree. Although I feel sad about not having lunch with my classmates. There are people in class who actually cared about me but not fully understand me. I just knew my classmats for 4 weeks? what can i expect much?

So went to Lot 1 to meet them up to have lunch. Yummy-licious. I'm full with a satisfied stomach not growling all the time. But when I was walking otw to interchange, I heard someone called my name? which I thought it was my hearing problem but no, it was Jasmine and her boyfy. oh great! First thought ( why is she here? I thought she was too lazy to move out from her house. ) Second thought ( Great!! ):< ) So I just jump to conclusion without thinking much because I wouldn't care much about her opinion because its always the same excuses.

To Jasmine, I'm a NO. and to her boyfy is a YES. Apparently our friendship is getting mundane and more mundane. Not a BFF anymore. Thanks for that Jasmine for me to write crap and nonsense over my blog talking about how great you're. You're a nobody who doesn't know how to even have a sense of balancing your love and friendship. Whatever Jasmine!

And you people know how much I hate people say whatever because I feel that they've no respect for the others and lazy to bother about their friends' feelings. And what i did just now was a what-ever-man!

Thank'you for that Jasmine for pissing me everytime we tried to meet. I thought I can always find you when I'm sad and looks like I'm wrong. Even now, i'm blinded by anger and couldn't think rational. Today is a YOU pissed-me-off day and I'll remember. why couldn't you just tell me, you're meeting your boyfy? is that hard for you to tell me? and instead used another fucking reasons like LAZY!

Phew I'm venting all my anger here. and thanks sheree and dave who are willing to spend their time having lunch with me even though they still have exams tomorrow. :DD loves~

I hate people who give excuses seriously.

Life is Good!

2010-05-09T19:03:00.000-07:00

LIFE I GOOD AND PERFECTLY FINE FOR ME?! NOTHING HAPPEN THESE FEW DAYS. FRIENDS ARE GETTING MORE AND MORE AND MORE. I'M STILL AS CRAZY AS EVER. IN FACT DOUBLE THE AMOUNT.:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

My All

2010-04-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

I tried to let everything go but I can't.
Somebody told me. Only if you let go of past go, only then they will let go off you.
Warning Bells Ringing like a fire alarm whenever I meet someone new.
I just can't change the way they look at me.
I'm sensitive about things around me.
The only thing I've is my best friends and family.
I need to keep them but I'm afraid if i do so, will they cut me so deeply that i will bleed profusely.
Its worst when your brain can't stop thinking.
People around you.. those who care about you that always have your back.
Its worst that you tried to take their advice but fail to do so.
Crying is only thing I know.
A guy crying? When chinese there's a saying.. Guys rather bleed than cry.
Why suffered when you're sad?
Why bother about that, when you're sad.. you cry.. its that simple.
Even now.. I'm so sick of life.
Is it better if i end it now?
I'm not that stupid, i can't leave my parents and friends.
Sometimes.. I just someone just to talk to me.
Anyone...
It sucks to be in the darkness all the time.

Friends thinks that I'm cheerful all the time.
Yes.. I'm cheerful because I've them.
I can't let them see my vulnerable side.
Whats the point?
Nowadays.. I don't who to trust.
My 6th sense are failing me. However I do trust a few of them. N, R, Jasmine.
Crap I looked like crap. seriously.

Actually what I hated the most is being lonely all the time.
I told one of my twins friends.
Because thats the time.. my brain stop thinking on its own.
Jasmine do help me with this.. is by reading books.
Thank you Jasmine.

Jasmine : Thank you for understand me so well even though you dislike some parts of me. You accepted who am I. You did your job as a friends by encouraging me all the time, stand beside me whenever I feel sad, angry, happy. I thank you.. this is the first time I really feel that God gave me a gift for so many suffering years. I thank you. Theres nothing i can say but thank you. And I wish you that you will last long with junjie. I hope he understands you more than I do. Stand beside you more than I do. I hope he treat you well. If he bullies you, tell me.. I'll be the first to kick his ass. Jasmine I hope you can be my best friend for life. you're a part of me now. my encouragement and spirit came from you. I hope you're not angry at me at the things I often did to you. Thank you.. I love you.

God : Thank you for bringing me to my parents. Even though I don't even know you're exist but I know the most precious gift that you gave us.. Free Will. TYG!

Hate that grows

2010-04-23T06:25:00.000-07:00

I seriously hate someone. totally.. ( Spoiled Runt. )
I began to hate the others soon... ( What an asshole am I! )
I hate the hot weather. ( Crap Wth! )
I hate that there are only limited places for our lunch.
I hate the sensitive part of me.
I hate to buy books because they're really expensive and heavy.
I seriously hate rats.
I seriously hate people who are so fake where they clearly cannot be true themselves.
I hate waking up in the morning just for school. ( Even though I adore my classmates. )
I hate my stomach which keeps growling all the time.

Anyway Life is still good for me. I simply love my classmates which some cases they really warmed my heart and accept who I'm really am. I really thank god for that.. finally my prayers have been answered even though god still keeps giving me bad luck more than good luck. NYP is seriously a good poly. Anyway just to let you know, I'm having fun everyday and I can't wait to go to school except for the lecture part and tutorial and tests.

These few days I experienced the joy of making friends. :DD

Orientation

2010-04-17T21:02:00.001-07:00

Let's start with my orientation camp which was fun on the 2nd day but boring on the first day.
As usual no one talks to each other on the first day.. Acting like my usual self, I try to talk to them. Arghh its actually harder than i thought. Anyway I'm in HF1006 class under SBM ( School of Business Management ). I'm in the hospitality class.

And this is our group photo. There're people missing though. Anyway I will be straightforward. Yes indeed there is people that I dislike ( Which Doesn't mean I hate them ) but I'll try to communicate with them as much as possible as so to erase any negative thoughts in my mind. Just think positive. Okay I'm lazy to type any events in sentences so i shall post it in bulletin form. Easier for me and easier for you to read.

First Day was Boring.
The concert that they planned for us was boring.
I'm hungry at that moment so I didn't comment much about the concert
Hate cheering as usual.
Went for Ice-breaker games as to know each other well.
Went home with a debrief for the next day.
The next day, I met Nadiah and Xue Feng to school and meet wee keng at the nrth canteen.
Went for wet games before the dry games.
SINCERLY APOLOGISED TO MS01 ( I think ), pls don't take it to heart. =x
The games was fun and creative though.
Taken a mass photos with other group. ( Stuffy and HOT )
Went for refreshment and wash-up ourselves.
Attend the talent show. ( OUR REPRESENTIVE, HUDA GOT 3rd. :D )
Went home with just a-bit of regrets.

Thats all! I'm sure my class is also having fun that day except for those who didn't came because of their work or other reasons.

Bongs!

2010-04-12T04:01:00.000-07:00

So what do you call a bee that produces milk?

A hilarious joke from my friend, Noel.. He's such a joker. Hes the guy who radiates Joy around him. Anyway I just came to update recent things that happened.. Totally Nothing! What a bullshit. I just keep working and keep working and am i doing? i just keep working. I'm just a workaholic. Anyway I'm just proud of myself.

And btw i just colleced my student pass which is way too cool. My face looks horrible and my course looks horrible as well but I'm ready to take on the horrible side. Went with Denry and Syahidah to collect my student pass.. Saw Changteck, Jiayi, Peckhwa and Qiu Xia along the way. And then watche Date Nights with Denry which is like a AWESOME movie. Hilarious parts and coarse language that they used makes u crack up. I rate it 4.5/5 poppys. Totally cool.

GREEN SKIN, SUPERSTAR, LIZARD, AH CI, BIG OLD BIRD! :DD

Answer to the riddle above : Boobies ( Boobees )

End of post : tanqueraysion.blogspot

Credited.

2010-04-01T09:53:00.000-07:00

As you can see, my blogs had made some adjustments.
Credits goes to Cindy Jie and Walt disney.
Cindy Jie is so GOOD to me. :DD

okay let's update some matters of mine. Still working in that wonderful hotel of mine. Marina Mandarin hotel Peach blossoms. Jasmine has come to work with me also. A huge hindrance to me. haha not really but she quite a fast learner. I'm rather surprised. Weiyi and I didn't do that well during our first few days and yet jasmine also mastered them all but she is still my junior. WHO CARES!! hahas i got the priority!! hahas.

Anyway met new friends along the way. Such as Weijian, Weijun, Noel, Amanda and my new manager bowie. OMG SHE IS DAMN FREAKING NICE AND KIND. simply love her too much. :D
Not only that my new manager is coming.. which I'm not looking forward to because she just gives me creeps when i heard her name, Nobel. sounds so... whatever! i just do the right thing and I'm sure she don't have excuses to scold me. :D

Anyway just watched Clash of the Titans. I rate it 3.5 poppys. I don't really find it really interesting. I WANT TO WATCH WHEN IN ROME. because its a comedy and i wanna watch it badly.

Ellen Degeneres

2010-03-26T08:34:00.000-07:00

Ellen degeneres, american stand-up comedian, host and actress

I simply love her. She is such an inspiration. Even she admits that she's gay which later on married to Portial de Rossi, she was not afraid. she was proud of herself as who she is. Anyway shes too cool.. and I fucking love her. She is so funny. Remember Dory from Finding Nemo? who suffer from serious short term memory loss.. she was the voice behind dory. Anyway she is one of the most successful hollywood celebrities.

Ellen also believes that when people gets older, they stopped playing which i think is true nowadays. Thats why she never fail to radiate happiness and her joy to the people around her. haha.. and she likes to scares people which I mostly do everything if i have the chance.

I love her Ellen Show which is so funny. her hilarious comments are so funny. the way she talks is so cool. She interview hundreds of celebrities like taylor swift, lady gaga and even Barack obama and michelle obama. lols.

She sings very well too. She even created "Ellen Bathroom concert series" which is so funny and i enjoyed the process a lot. But its a pity that ellen show is only channel 5, 5pm-6pm which i can't catch it because I'm working. Ah hell!

oh yup as your should know, she is also one of the judges of Americal Idol. she also holds many awards and host the grammy and oscars awards before. I wished I could see her personally one day. btw she 51 years old now. How the hell did she preserve her face till now. I'm so envy of her. D:

I JUST SIMPLY LOVE ELLEN DEGENERES!!!

Updating

2010-03-22T09:29:00.000-07:00

Amazing photography skills (:
Simple Adored it.. just surfing the net as usual.. there's nothing much around.. plain boring.
Sometimes I do lots of mistakes in my life. in fact too many. I gotta open my heart and accept things around me but i find'it quite hard to do so. I just want to live a normal life but.. its too hard.
Friends around us.. we just don't know who to trust. "A good friend can tell you what is the matter with you in a minute. He may not seem such a good friend after telling." A quote by Arthur Brisbane.

I'm back to peach blossoms again. :D
Ginny is leaving and I'm rather sad even though she can be a pain at times. She's a good teacher and i wondered why she wants to quit. anyway yesterday, we have fun.. Ate at sakae sushi then anderson.. Bought my favourite Beguim chocolate back home which cost 10 bucks. Sweet deal. <3 and also I bought my new lappy. (lenovo) bought it for $2000+. Great heavens. Poly life is starting and i can't wait to start school soon. Meeting denry at 12 april and i hope i can remember. and the orientation is at 16 april which i messed up the dates the another time. There are alot of activities waiting for me and i can't wait to participate all of them. (:

Signing off~

I'm a Bartender?

2010-03-16T07:55:00.000-07:00

I'm a Bartender now.(in training) . lols. what can I say life is always full of surprises. I love being a Bartender except the part where i got to memories those cocktails and mocktails and more. I'm starting to cut fruits now and preparing cocktails like mojito which was a hot favourite. Bloody mary was another one. Martini was another one. ahh blah blah blah.. Btw as you can see.. I've change my job. More irritating people around me. GOSH! totally hate some of them.. NO! most of them..

Anyway I'm working at JING.. which is a new restaurant.. at one fullerton.. anyway GOD BLESS. (:

A Very Wrong Relationship

2010-03-07T07:23:00.000-08:00

Okay i felt strongly that i needed to post this. Okay.. I've this friend... okay I have to clarify this. I didn't meant to offend you in any way in this blog. Even if your boyfriend see this.. i think he needs to know something and do something.

There is no ever-lasting relationship in our teenage stage.. those kinds of ever-lasting relationship only happens rarely.. My friend apparently had this boyfriend who is still currently studying.. secondary 5. And because of love.. he doesn't wanna study and always wanted to stay beside her girlfriend without leaving her girlfriend any option.. her girlfriend being the sensible one, discourages this and ask him to study hard. but this asshole boyfriend came out with a 100 and 1000 reasons/excuses. He said this. " Don't you what I'm doing is for your sake?" For god hell sake... Jesus.. I don't even find this a reason, a reason. its merely a fucking excuse.

And yes! which couple don't quarreled.. and then ended up having break ups. This brainless boyfriend threatened to her that.. if she break with her.. he will jump off the building.. -.- Furthermore there was once when this girlfriend ask for a break.. that boyfriend of hers immediately fainted... Good one.. and because of that..she was afraid of him fainted.. so she never mentioned that sensitive 2 words " Let's break" that will trigger off his suicide thoughts.

But i really have to pity this boyfriend of hers... his suicide thoughts came from his loving mum which most of time spending her time fighting with his husband. however this is really unaccepted.. i understand that he will always love her because of the influence that his family problems caused. He believes that he will never let his relationship repeat the same history as his own family.. which was believe that spend most of time fighting rather than sitting down together eating dinner. Furthermore his relationship with his other friends ended up further and further from each other.

But this is really wrong..

I don't know whether if this will end up like a tragedy but I've tried advice my girl friend.. which she clearly did not listened any of them.. Because she love him too much. and the same thing goes to her boyfriend. Okay I admit that I was angry with her because of his overly-control-boyfriend.See this people.. is present tense.. not past tense. I don't expect anymore from her. I've done my job as a listener and an adviser. Fullstop..

But let me tell you girlfriend if you' know yourself that i'm refering to you. I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT THIS RELATIONSHIP OF YOURS WILL NOT LAST LONG AND THEN YOU WILL BREAK DOWN LIKE BEFORE. AND THEN YOU'LL VISIT YOUR VERY OWN PSYCHIATRIST AND CRYING LIKE A MORON TO HIM. AND NOT FORGETTING YOUR LITTLE MIND PILLS. YOU UNDERSTAND?! (: TYVM.

I may seem to be like a busybody to everyone else. but she's a very important friend of mine.

Btw i've watched this movie already. Alice in wonderland 3D. :D i rate it 4 poppys! ( popcorns )

PS: this post was meant to wake up this girl friend of mine. D:<

Hate oranges!

2010-03-04T08:47:00.000-08:00

FUCKING HATE ORANGES!

Ops. what a embarrassed moment. that was a rotten pumpkin. Looks like i've gotten it wrong. Only Weiyi ( Ci Jie ) , Kenny, Lu pei and I know how oranges can be such detestful fruit!

Ah-huh! This is definitely oranges. A fucking rotten orange. I've wasted all my energy on work today despite i kept eating to refill my energy. I don't think that will work, isn't it? Kinda pityful as my stomach gets growling non-stop. However thanks to a 1000+ rotten oranges. I'm full. The stench was so overwhelming and polluting our air supply. PHEW! I hate oranges from now on. I don't think a normal person can tolerate that kind of smell except hui ci jie. hahaha.. had a tiff with amanda today. she was like commanding me even she only works for 4 days. PLEASE? even though you're a god-damn full timer.. doesn't mean you have the authority or rights to boss me around.. Get it bitch?!

Sue was another one?! even though she works longer than me.. she is totally full of excuses. damn her and god-damn her! I just can't get along with CHINA LADIES! They' can be bitch at times!

PS : not all china people are bad.. but most of them're!

Farewell BOSS!

2010-03-02T10:16:00.000-08:00

The last day of the February month which i thought was a warm month was our gathering with my colleagues. As much as you guess, they're lovely people. As much as I adored them, they treat me kindly ( sometimes ). Anyway I don't care. Anyway I just let the photos do the talking. I'm lazy to post irritating stuffs all these while. I'm tired of living. Pardon for the bad photography. it was midnight and i don't see a need to pose in front of the camera. and seriously my handphone camera sucks. okay nope.. correction. almost all handphone camera sucks. [: Despite everything and everything else. I'll still remember 3 person.. Caifong, Ellery and kenneth. As for the rest of the people, I don't see a need to remember them. A waste of my memory space.

Anyway I've been saving up to buy these things ASAP!!.

Canon ISUX
Lappy
Clothes

By the way there's an IT fair held at suntec city during the period of mid-march. I kinda forgotten the dates of the It fair but I'm sure Delon will remind me again. Anyway.. I'm still w8ting for that god-damned package to arrived.. all the other polys had received their package. and NYP!! THERE"S NONE. What a waste of my time. anyway I'm still working at peachy blossom. Be sure to come and eat if you're rich. :DD

Jerry Low Reporting news of HUICI.

2010-02-25T07:25:00.000-08:00

Hello.. Good Evening People. This is news reporter, Jerry Low A.K.A Niaobusendan. I've currently spotted a girl who is currently working under Marina Mandarin Hotel, Peach blossom. She have been working since Monday and she's doing great. Everybody in Peach blossom like her. She's enjoying breakfast with a guy called Linden Liow today. And linden shared half of her bread to her. It was really unexpected because Linden seems to be a very selfish guy. But what we have discovered was...

The video of our secret camera..

kenneth : Girl I shall give you 3 names.. You shall decide which names suit you best. :D

HUICI
CI JIE/CI MEI
AH HUICI

Girl : I don't know.. give me time to think...

End of viewing the secret camera..

However from our paparazzi, we have not confirm what her decision was but we are determined to find out. This is a very serious matter and I hope people will come and vote whether which name suits the girl best. thank you for your cooperation. This is Jerry Low A.K.A Niaobusendan reporting here.

OH MY GOD, BABY UNDERSTAND!!!
similarity: 85%

PS: This post has nothing to with http://Tanqueraysion.blogspot.com. Its only for entertaining purposes.

Making Mistakes

2010-02-19T22:29:00.000-08:00

Remember the times when Mr Michael tan ( Jigglypuff ) always conducts his Physics lessons? Fucking bored. No matter how hard you tried to pay attention.. we'll just fall asleep. Even if you sleep the whole day and attends his lessons, he will never failed to make you fall asleep. But after I graduate, I began to miss his sleepy lessons. Mr Tan is a good physic teacher and a kind one.

We only know to treasure things when we lost it. it's human nature. You must experience the pain then only then you will learn from it. Yesterday I watched " The Apprentice " and I like what he had said. " I Love to see people made mistakes because only then he will learn from it and never to repeat that same old mistake again. " Totally true. And guess what.. Mr Tan always emphasis on this. Don't be afraid to make mistakes..is what he always said to us ( 4-berners.) Some of them listened to what he said.. some of them ignore. Well I guess we all are unique and have different points of views. We can't expect everyone have the same thoughts.

Making mistakes made you embarassed. I know because I've experience too many times. Like what I do.. I remember offending Jin Fang once. Clearly I was in fault and was punished. I remember Mr Ng scolded weiyi and I of setting a bad example to the juniors and punished us in front of the whole band. I was furious at that time. We made no mistake but what can we said. We are afraid of saying the truth out and that time I know explaining things will make things worst and I believe there is no concidence. That was my thinking at that time. Furthermore I made a lot of mistakes such as being a busybody to help friends which make things worst in the end. ( During Sec3 when I tried to help weiwen ) and trusted the wrong person (Jialing ). And people saying the same comments every year. ( Gay ) All these mistakes can caused me so much suffering. So much!

But I overcome all of them because I believe in things that most of people don't. Compare to me, there are children out there who suffered more than us. Being abuse or sexually, felt abandoned, the continous growling of empty stomach, struck by natural disaster that destroyed their lives and homes and their hopes. So I should be happy. :D

I began to look things clearly now. And my friend who had been suffered in BGR problems. Such as Jiamin who was threatened by his boyfriend that he can't live without her. And I was right, Derrick's friends had became lesser and lesser. Furthermore he doesn't have the heart to study now. However I can't blame Derrick though. He is following the path of his parents.

My friend who overcome his past.. Leonard whom his father died of lung cancer due to his havey smoking. But his father love never dies. Although Leonard was strike with grief and pain but he overcome it. He's now a lovely and a passionate friend of mine.

My friend whom I will never forget.. Gregory. I hope he still remembers me. I remember when we were still very good friends when I was in primary one. He was only one who regarded as a human. Whenever I talked about him, I'll just feel emotional. Friends told me why I never went to look for him as singapore is just a very small island. I told my current friends.. I just want him to remember the way I am when I was primary one. (: And i heard he is doing well.. He was the head prefect of choa chu kang primary once. ops I forgot to mentioned that he was transfered to cck primary when he was just 8 years old. And I'm sure his doing even better now even though we lost contact for years.

Friends whom I will never forgive..

Anyway This post was just voicing out my opinion of making mistakes. And I'm sure a lot of readers knew this from the start but actions speaks louder than words. (:

PS: I hate trusting the wrong person.. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

Awful!

2010-02-19T01:49:00.000-08:00

Awful! Frustrated! Everything! I'm Sick! Coughing non-stop. throat infection whom the doctor said. Wth is throat infection?! Is there a lump or a bump on my throat? whatever.. I should blame Leonard. His the one who spread this disease to me. I'm pretty sure. lols. I'm just joking.

Anyway I had fun yesterday even though I'm already starting coughing since then. Went with leonard to buy his twin* bro's guitar strings. We chatted along the way to bugis junction. Just to play the arcade. lols. But along the way.. We played truth or dare which was quite stupid because there's only 2 of us playing. In the end we used scissors,stone and paper to decide who is the winner and obsviouly the loser. And very lucky of me, I lost! How great! Anyway i've chosen dare. And he didn't have the idea.. So i offered myself an idea then.. ( How bout taking a photo with foreigners. ) He agreed. :D

And guess what.. I don't have the balls to ask the angmohs. Firstly it was too embarassed and those angmohs are so old! Pardon to say.. they still look pretty attracting though. And leonard was laughing all the way. What the hell is so funny? But in the end i managed to find one. Hurray to me!

Okay here it is.. Don't ask me why I sensor my face. Your should know the reason! BECAUSE I"M TOO UNGLAM. But these angmohs are sure nice people. :DD I don't where they came from but I'm sure they came from "NICE Kingdom" they're awfully nice.

Anyway Weiyi's acc had been hacked and so please delete her previous acc. I think her previous msn was lurvie_dreams@hotmail.com. Delete that and add her new msn lurvie_nightmares@hotmail.com.. LOLS I'm just joking. Anyway guys pls try to use firefox as internet explorer is not safe anymore. Once Bitten Twice Shy. Hope weiyi learns her lesson. XD how rude of me.

Anyway I'm on medication so i won't be posting anymore.

So FUNNY HAHA!! XDXDXDXD

PS: WEIYI I didn't meant to offend you though :DD XOXOXO

New year

2010-02-16T05:54:00.000-08:00

Happy new year!
well I received lots of money this year :DD And watched a lot of movies this year. Anyway I don't want to talk about unhappy things that happened the last few weeks as I don't see a need to do so. Okay let's move on... Days passed.. and a lot of things happened. so I shall put all the events in bullets form.

1st February - Start of my new part time job : Marina Mandarin Hotel (peach Blossom)
4th February - Dinner With Mr Jalleh/Mr Tan and Dnt students. :D
14th February - Which is obviously CNY celebration.

Watch Percy Jackson The Lightning Thief with jasmine and Raymond. This movie was a so-so for me. Maybe the movie doesn't make sense through-out. I rate this movie 3/5 popcorns. Anyway it still a good movie for the rest of you.

Watched this action-adventure/comedy movie with my cousins. it very long since we last hang out together. we're still bonding close enough. Anyway this movie was average. It may not be a very good movie because there are parts which are really boring.. Anyway its a sad ending so if you don't want sad ending perhaps u should skipped this movie. Anywya lee-hom acted very well. :D

okay another hollywood fiction movie. The Wolfman. I watched this with leonard today only. We don't feel like watching hongkong comedy movies. it seemed like it is a idiotic comedy movie to me. anyway I bought my bag and shoe bag and new clothes already. SWEET!

Anyway there are still good movie yet to be shown yet. Such as Clash of the titans ( 3D ) which is the best. and alice in wonderland acted by Jonny Depp.

A Rest

2010-02-06T07:37:00.000-08:00

Finally I'm able to post.. lols.
Okay i transferred my work to Marina Mandarin hotel, Peach blossoms.

Okay working there is a so-so.
But the food is very nice and I suggest your to come over and eat if you want to. Even though i don't want to serve your as a customer. laugh-out-loud. okay so come over to marina hotel and come to level 5. Its not halal so I won't suggest muslim friends to come over..

Okay today I went out with jasmine to Jurong point. our plan was initially to go to Plaza sing or marina but its seems like it was too far and we were lazy to go that far. Jurong point was still invest with humans walking and bumping into each other. What can we do? we are near CNY, aren't we? So I'm eating my reunion dinner tommorrow and will be working the the next day. Boring... I've to get up so early just to go there.. but who cares? As long as i get money.. it's fine.. furthermore Marina Square is a shopping paradise. and food and fun too...
Btw we watched the 14 blades. it was nice i rate it 4 poppy ( popcorns. ). And I enjoyed my day too. Okay back to the point... I'm eating my reunion dinner tommorrow and I guess I will not post anymore till next week. Ah hell!

Sarena

2010-01-29T03:28:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday Sarena!
Well I kinda say it for the third time.
well 3 things I've wish for you.

Be happy no crying
Be strong not weak
Gorgeous but not pretty

I kept things simple. Sorry Sarena...

Nanyang poly

2010-01-28T07:09:00.000-08:00

NANYANG POLY HERE I COME.
( Hospitality and Tourism Management. )

Decided not to appeal as I don't want to take the risk.
Decided to let go all the negative past and move on. ( it'll never happened. )
Decided to pick more flowers. ( dedicated to sheree goh ruhua. )
Decided to make more new friends. ( starting already )
Decided to make the best out of everything.
Decided not to join band in future. ( enough of stress, I shall stick to TWSS band. )
Decided to learn Japanese. ( Been waiting. )

Enjoy each and every single day :DD

New friend

2010-01-24T07:11:00.001-08:00

It's so unpredictable whether you're meeting new friends for the first time. It's a kinda phobia that I usually have all time. his name is Kai as I've introduce him the previous posts. As I said his doesn't look handsome nor charming but he is a good friend. Perhaps a good buddy. I was actually afraid of meeting new friends because they doesn't seems reliable or I'm just not those sociable types. Well I don't really give a good impression to people who saw me the first time. Perhaps they're disgusted by my personality. Skipping the part of how I act like a Gay but I'm not one of them. I actually don't mixed with the crowd much cause i don't see a need to join in the fun. I prefer smaller groups though. :D
My opinion of bigger/larger groups of friends.

Okay it's really fun when there's a whole lot of us gathering around telling jokes, playing games and interacting with each other. But who is the one of the all you can rely on and talk comfortable with? Who is the one you can trust? I don't really see a need for having a whole group of friends together. Maybe I'm classic or old-minded. That's why I don't really like crowds shouting at blabbering at each other.
My opinion of smaller groups of friends.

Okay it's the opposite of having bigger groups of friends. You can gossip, talk and trust the one being the closest with you. You can taker him/her for a drink when you're feeling low. He/she will always be there. You don't expect those larger groups to come find you and encourage you? Those larger groups prefer to do something more fun than encouraging you. That's why psychologist thinks that in a person's life, one or two best friends is enough for you. Don't be greedy. Ofc it doesn't mean that you just stick with that friend for life and not meeting new friends. My purpose of saying this was is there really a need for a whole group of us acting as one united singaporeans? I don't see a need. 3 or 4 person in a group will be fine. 2 will be the best so that you won't neglect the rest.

Okay I've just watched this movie : Tooth Fairy ( comedy )
The morale of the story was to imagine the unbelievable. Giving up is easy but not giving up is hard. It's just whether you're determined a not? some things are worth giving up and somethings you definetely can't give up just like friends. Btw this movie was funny and I rate it a 3/5 for myself. Best outing movie for families to watch together.

ANyway I went to collect my edusave award too. Met Jiaxin and Anjuan along the way. Jiaxin is very pro can? She went to apply for PJC which was rather remarkable. I can't do well in JC, once I fail GP. bye god. I'll die in front of him. lols I'm exagerate things. Anyway i shall post till here. there's nothing much to say.

PS: this post doesn't meant to hurt anyone. lols

Scorpio 250th

2010-01-21T06:16:00.000-08:00

Well I've post this before but this is a even more detail one.
Give me a tap on my shoulder. I've posting these few days. :D

Scorpio people are magnetic, powerful, forceful, emotional, sexual, and psychic. Scorpios are incredibly passionate, persistent, and intense. Scorpios are often the “spiritual seekers” trying to find the right path for themselves which can be ever changing. Being naturally intuitive a Scorpio is able to easily see through lies or secrets, it’s just not easy to fool them. But their powers of secrecy for themselves are grand, mysterious, and very instinctual for them. A Scorpio doesn’t usually like you to know everything about them; they are cautious, meticulous, deliberate, and deeply emotional. Many times a Scorpio is noted as “obsessive” rather than “intense” and it’s important to see the difference between the two. Scorpios rely great upon instinct, and their own natural intuition to make choices. They are committed, subtle, loyal, and very persistent in everything they do. Scorpio rules the bladder and the genitals, which can make them prone to venereal diseases and bladder infections. ( LOLS! )

THE NEGATIVE SIDE: Scorpios like all other signs, have a darkside and it includes: revenge seeking, obsessive behavior, holding grudges, and power addictions. Get into a tangle with the wrong Scorpio and you’ll be very sorry, they can also be prone to violence.
THE POSITIVE SIDE: endings, seriousness, power, transformations, death, the dead, sex, ESP, mysteries and secrets, determination, energy, passion, emotions, spirituality, brings major results on multiple levels, use no malice during Scorpio it can be dangerous.

Element : Water
Ruled by Pluto
Representative tarot card: Death

Loh Xing Ting

2010-01-20T05:17:00.000-08:00

You know who's Low Xing Ting?
Actually she's Joy who was once my very very best friends.
But we ended quarreling with each other again.
Actually both are at fault.
I'm just not sure. D:

LET ME STATE THIS CLEARLY, SHE"S NOT MY GIRLFRIEND OR ANYTHING.

We're just very close friends. ( and she's my GOD_MA!! )

Let's start our own little adventure then.

Oh yup before that I only dedicate this post specially for Joy
since she ask for it. haha

When I first met her.
She was huge.. BIGGER THAN ME.
Her Butt can fit 10 of my face putting them together.
her height was around 180++ which was like mad for a lady like her.
Her breath was so long.
Her breast are huge too can?
Skipping the diameter of it.
But however she left a very bad impression to me.
These are the reasons.

Too Fat

Too warmth that i can't get over it.

Too close

Whatever bong bong.

So we're not that close for the first year when i was just secondary one.

however in sec 2 about june holidays, which I finally began to love band as a CCA.
An interest that kept me alive and laughing mad with Sheree Goh, Jiecheng.
However not weiyi because She's was too bossy that year until something strike her like a thunder. But who cares. O: But we're good mates now :D which I'm glad to have a friend like her. and before weiyi comment on this post. PLS DON"T! I don't want see your comment whether you've intention of commenting or not.

Continued... Since then joy also went close with sheree, jiecheng and me.
Four of us enjoyed our band outing and practice.
Having lunch together during lunch break. FUN :DD
And going homed with Sheree and Joy.
Which in fact Joy and I've gotten closer to each other more.
And we became very best friends.
So close that even our most dirtiest secrets have been told.
She knows my darkest secrets. XD

However Joy was very ignorant and stupid like last time.
She was very immature at the same time too.
I tried to advice her along the way.. And complaining about Mr Ng along the way.
That was in the past.
We went out together to eat lunch most of the times.
And we enjoyed that friendship. :DD

As life goes on...
Quarrels are unavoidable.
Crap was the only thing i wanted to said.
She was making unnecessary comments that i can't take it anymore.
And she way hated me a lot because she thought i was choosing friends for her.
But I merely told her that PLS OPEN YOUR PIGS' EYES TO SEE WHETHER THEY"re true.
Not saying that I'm true or what.
I still backstab her whenever she made me angry like a fuck'tub ass.
But I swear to God I never backstab her when I was close with her.

So our friendship was like a bumpy ride.
There were Ups and Down.

Finally I told her something on a very night.
She was not shocked which I don't really know whther it's true or not.
But she accepted me as who am I.
Which made me very grateful to have her as my best friend.
This is when I regretted of not knowing her well enough when I was sec 1.
When fate brought this friendship together and I thought I should treasure her.
However things were still going not smoothly after her graduation.
Perhaps stupid ideas of hers came running out of her mind.

Btw She did promise me something that was real impt.

By 21 years old she'll slim down successfully and be confident.
Being Fat may not seemed to be a problem.. it's just that she've enough comments about her and being so fuck tub that she doesn't have much friends way before she met me.
Perhaps this was a thinking or point of view of teens nowadays.
Being fat you're being discriminated, despise, humilated. or Dui Lian which means a disgraced being around with fat people.
But who cares?! I chose friendship BY HEART not HER SIZE?!
Pls note : Now out there, there are modeling agencies hiring fat people.

I just can't get why people despise Fat people like her?
Is she causing earthquakes around or tsunami?
Sorry no.. just because you are not in her shoes doesn't gives you the right to say her.
or don't like her or causing troubles for her.
Please use your brains to think.
Do you think she likes being Fat?
Everybody says " pls be yourself, don't care about what people think of you."
Sorry hor that is just a bullshit example, She doesn't like being commented which was the same plight as me when bullies call me names. ( E.G Sissy, Ah Gua)
Do you think we like being like that?
Don't you people have minds to think?
Fuck you! Even my friend Pinchen knows how to use heart to make friends with people.
Fucker!! btw he is just only 14 and he can think like a adult ( sometimes 0: )
Even Weiyi also doesn't mind that when she stead with me. <3 can? And WHY AM I TELLING MY STORY TO EVERYONE.?!! This post is for Joy.

ya continue. Current situation : she made me very upset about something recently which I'm not supposed to say it out. okAy whatever. She just made me very upset.. maybe a bit too way lot. She thinks that she's mature. PUI!!! LaoSAI! Don't you dare Joy! of saying about that when I see you doing something right for yourself.

okay maybe people think that I'm unreasonable too at the same time. Controlling her life of what.. But she understands why and which u people have no rights to know. Okay by reading this much. you may seem that I'm not a very good person or friend because of my attitude. yes I admit.. most people don't like me either for the first time and there are bound to be people hating me right now.. and they feel like killing me too. okay whatever? Just be yourself? or what?

I accept joy as what she is and her accepting me the way I am.

Is just that I know She wants to hear people wee-ing at her. Filrting with her. woohoo~ i don't care. As long as I know she my friend, I'm happy and if she's happy, I'm happy too. Let's just hope for a better tml for her. And not forgetting me. :DDD PS:

This Post was not dedicate to anyone but Joy and teaching those fools with small brains to see that we're freaks that shouldn't exist on this planet. Sad to SAY, WE DO!

Btw Currently Chatting with CINDY LEE JIE. and my new friend, kai yeo which had the same surname as my mum ( real mum) She wanted to publish too. Cindy was my Gan-jie for 2 years and she had been taking very good care of me since. I still kept her lollipop that she gave me for my birthday.. haha i love that lolli can. I put coins inside. I shake it when I'm bored. JUST LIKE A SMALL KID! okay it may seem stupid but it's fun. I wonder where she bought it so that I can buy another one for myself. CINDY is a good friend lah.

Okay Kai was my new friend four hours ago. And he wanted to be in the limelight too lah. ahaha... He likes GYM a lot and he even request for a outing.. OKAY I'm feeling very awkward because we just met only. But his a good guy.. Wish him all the best.

PS: BEEN EDITING LIKE A WHOLE CRAP!!!

CANON CAMERA.

2010-01-13T08:00:00.000-08:00

CANON CAMERA EOS 500D.
M.G I'm gonna buy this fucking camera advertise by Avril Lavigne.
Okay maybe it's a bit too late to post this.
Her commerical which was served for Singapore only had already shown in TV.
Gonna saved up for the camera. I love Avril Lavigne. :D
She's Pretty, Owning a supreme beautiful voice that stuns fans around her.
Woohoo.. I just hope she planning a concert at Singapore.
But I heard she was planning a asian tour concert soon. (:
She was born in Belleville, Ontario, Canada on September 27, 1984.
She has a younger sister, Michelle and an older brother, Matthew.
Became engaged to Deryck Whibley on June 25, 2005.
But i heard they're breaking up soon. Ah blah. what a thing!

Love this camera if i bought this. WOOHOO!!

The end of Road

2010-01-10T04:39:00.000-08:00

Finally The End Of Road is coming.
The O's level result is out tomorrow.
Another phrase of my life has finally ended and at the same time the beginning of my phrase.
From being a baby, a toddler who can memorize ABC at the age of 3.
From a toddler to a kindergarden ignorant child who knew nothing.
Then from a child to a primary kid student.
A primary kid who suffer through pain although there's some light in between.
Then from a primary school student to a secondary school student.
A secondary school student who causes unnecessary troubles.
Then to a taking O's levels result alumni.
Hmm.. long way ahead..
I don't care. One of my goals in my life is to be happy.
Let fate decides my path.
Although my character, attitude some people can't take it.
But I'm sure I will find my twin partner.
A twin friend who i can understand him, and him understanding me.

A true friend doesn't mean his true.
Only the one who truly accept who you're.
the one who you can rely on.
I want to find that friend.
No matter how hard it is.

2010-01-09T05:33:00.000-08:00

I
Will
Not
Forgive
Them
Never!
Really
never.

Judging a person just by its cover.
I'll never forgive them.
I'll give them what I've suffer these years.
They think they have pushed me over the cliff.
Let's see how it goes.

btw
Happy Birthday Weixiang
and my beloved mum.

The Countdown of 2009

2010-01-01T07:29:00.000-08:00

I was fucking pissed when people started to sms you that they can't make it to the countdown party.
Ahh hell worst sms-es ever heard in the whole bloody year.
Well Firstly...
happy new year guys.
It's time to be move on to our next phrase of our lifes.
okay it may seemed torturing, hateful, cheerful or whatever bimbos or bitches coming after you.
Just note one thing.
treasure everything you have now.
Don't w8 till the last minute.
it's not worth it.

okay however as i said what a bloody sms i received.
I refused to stay at home?!
for god sake, how can i watch others having
fun while I'm at home rotting?!
NO way.!!

Luckily heaven was on my side.
I managed to go out with Anjuan, weixiang, shwuboon, hafizah, jasmine, Pinchen...
Went to Marina Bay countdown.
I was bit disappointed at the movie i watched that day too.

Treasure Hunter
This movie was not nice except a man named Pork ribs was the most entertaining guy.
The storyline was messy and it doesn't seem to match.
However we can only judge this movie by acting.
Jay acted well.. ( experience )
However not the model by the name of Ling-zhi-ling.
her acting skills?... ermm bad... ( she's better at walking.. )
The movie was like No-good no-good.
I want to watch the Fourth-kind.
By hell means.

Okay before the movie, went for a tea buffet with jasmine.
Sakae Sushi..

I censored the words written on my shirt.
It's too childish.. [:

Jasmine was very picky her food.
Ah hell.. Princess temper. lols no offence though.

OKay at marina bay.
The fireworks was exceiting.. okay whatever.
That's not the point..
I won't post about the fireworks or anything.
every blogger in this world will post about that for me.
and viewers will go.. Crazy about posting/voicing out their views.

This is what I'm going to post.

Fucking crowd standing in my way.
This was not the whole point.
Making me wait is one thing.
Pushing me is another thing.
I almost screamed at them.. and gave them a punch as a new year gift..
Furthermore this was not all...
A bangla kept whistle out loud.
And he was crazy... ( which was pissing my ass out )
So i shouted stupid bangla at him.
And lots of people was laughing at me or him.
especially one guy who laughed so loud that i stunned for a minute.
was that funny? Sure do.. I even scolded the bangla fucking bangla.
It was really irritating. with all that pushing and screaming.
Turning nuts will be a no problem.

Anyway it was a enjoyable experience with my friends.
except for the pushing part.

Btw all of them came my house today again.
To play mahjong and maple!!
But my com can't play MAPLE!!!
Fucky my come..
Time to reformat i think..
since I hate it lots.

The promise

2009-12-28T06:36:00.000-08:00

Fate is something that brings friendship and love around.
I'm grateful that fate brought Sarena and jasmine and me together at bugis.
How fortunate we're.
Jasmine and I went to bugis and we saw a bitch wearing a blue top and a grey skinnies.
we invite her for a movie and she agreed.
We had dinner, shopping and movie together.
Let the photos do the saying.
I'm lazy to post.
But sarena...
You're one fucking lucky bitch...
I'm really glad I've such a partner like you.
God bless you!

Btw we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks.

rating for me 3/5
the show was not bad.

Avatar.

2009-12-23T08:36:00.000-08:00

Avatar!!
Not the last airbender.
But a planet pandorum where it lives with different kinds of mystical beast.
Be sure to catch it either in 3D or 2D..
Catch, Chase or watch it whatever you do. :DD
RATINGS FOR ME 4.5/5

Ukimono

2009-12-20T09:20:00.001-08:00

Just bought this for my mum as a birthday gift and ofc christmas gift..

Cost a bomb but worth it. ( My sis shared half of the price. -.- )
All these hard years my mum had helped us a lot.
She deserves the reward.
One composition can't describe my love for my mum.
There is still a promotion going on. (:

Hurry and buy now!!

P.S $328 by the way.
Free osim mps.
A S.H.E calendar poster of 2010.
A notebook and a file.

Christmas is coming and I've bought the gifts.
Well I've also invited people to celebrate and enjoyed the fireworks on the 31st.
Though I haven't invited all of them.

Well to the main topic.
I need to explain things.
Since these information/message had been conveyed wrongly.
I was being asked which means volunteer to go for CNL perform on the 19th.
but however I didn't want to go as I did very badly for the practice which means awful.
I didn't want to fake during the performance as well as affect the whole band.
They played too well and nice. :D
Btw I was stress as well which I told Weiyi..
Some personal reasons.

Well... Ermm... nothing... I can't say it anyway.
It'll cause me trouble.
I can only suffer in slience since I'm those type of people.
But i did take it to heart but what can I do? D;
But I know there are friends who really cared about me and I'm grateful.

oh yup Quarrel with like a person this week.
I won't mentioned it.
The only thing i can said is...
Anger only makes things worst.
Sit back and think carefully and makes things work.

I just hope things won't get worst along the days.
let's just hope for a better tomorrow.
Who cares anyway?!
Enjoy our life for now.
Things will get better.

Btw people advanced Happy Christmas.

ohya I already planned my new year's resolutions.
Ah hell lots of things.

Get at least 11 points for O's level results. ( I was having a nightmare of failing everything. DD;)
Get into a course/polytechnic I want.
Lots of money ( who doesn't want this?! )
To be in good health.
Maintaining good relationship with friends/make more new trustworthy friends.
Hope to receive less criticism.
Fuck off to those brainless, ignorant, childish, idiotic, backstabbers, lunatic-s, barbaric,bimbos, trouble-makers, lots and lots.
Secert*

Btw I no longer have the crush on that person.
Because I felt that its a waste of my time since that fcuker is a asshole/bitch/bastard whatever.
hate that person like o the core.
Ah hell just hopes that person go to hell.
Morons!!!

Depressed.

2009-12-16T02:53:00.000-08:00

Another week of hell.
I just hope I'll die soon in peace without any regrets.
Another exhausted week.
Let start from the beginning.
First I've the CNL band to drain more of my energy.
Yes i volunteered myself as i thought it will be helpful to improve my skills.
However it was a backfire.
Furthermore I kept giving stress to myself.
Worst than everything in my heart.

However U want to whine here.
About a 2-faced bastard.
I just don't understand why?!
If you don't like that fucking idiotic person.
Just go straight and say, " hey i don't like you. "
It's that simple.
I just don't get it.
Maybe I don't know what's happening.
I just know I don't that person either.
Damn... I feel so regretted.
Ah hell.

The "N" level results will be out very soon.
If I'm not wrong its this friday.
Let's just wish our N level students a very good luck.
Gambatte.. But I'm sure you will be crying on that day.
Either tears of joy or tears of disappointment.
And another 2 more weeks after the N level results.
The O's level result will be out very soon.
Ah hell.. I kept thinking about it.
Exactly what Farah say " paranoid "
Ah hell.

Bored with life.
Christmas is like coming.~

Friends

2009-12-11T06:51:00.000-08:00

Angel Linden : there'll be always a friend to stand by you and cared for you.

Devil Linden: Linden everyones knows that. dumbarse -.-

Angel Linden : would you mind not to interrupt when I'm talking? (:

Devil Linden : fuck.. I'm speaking the truth. D:

Angel Linden : There are so many friends I cared for such as Joy, Sarena, Jasmine, my cousins, parents, siblings, Andric, Crystal, farah, etc. sorry if I never mention your name.

Devil Linden : ( picking his ears. not listening..)

Angel Linden : (looking at devil.) Do you have any comments to say it out?

Devil linden : Yes..

Devil Linden : bloody creatures.. friends are all bullshit. crap! fuck them. They betrayed me. Mock at me, bitching around our back, who knows whether if they will not backstab me?
They're fucking morons. I only trust myself. Angel stop thinking that all people are good and care for us. To me they're just bloodsuckers. i can just live on my own. it's the reality!

Angel Linden : devil you've so much sufferings but think at another point of view. We can trust them, we can have fun together, shopping, catch a movie, grab a snacks, share dirty secrets, how lucky for friends around us.

Devil Linden : Angel you're polluting my mind, so just fuck off and shut up.

Angel Linden : i care for you devil.. look at Andric.. although he was betrayed by his friends but he still enjoyed his life because he knows there are people who cared for him like us.

Devil Linden : Shut the fucking mouth of yours up. Look at Andric.. pathetic isn't it? Betrayed by his beloveed friends. Abandoned him like a baby. Pity pity.. If he suffered the pain now, how would he trust his others friends.

Angel linden : ...

Devil Linden : listen Angel. Follow your own instict, bring your evil inside your heart. (:<

Angel Linden : You're wrong. we do need friends. yes there are friends that are unreliable but they are friends where you can lean on them. Open your eyes and heart to see them.

Devil Linden : you'll see Angel.. the world is die-ing. ( flying away )

Angel Linden : friends are important.. really. ( crying )

Things that I seen so far.

2009-12-06T01:08:00.000-08:00

This food is widely known to many people.
Maybe, perhaps, nothing.
I just want to criticise this person who made this dish.
What can you see from above?
A FUCKING DARK CHOCOLATE SHIT.
How am i supposed to eat it down?
Morons who made this must be a moron who make this disgusting dish.
But it's delicious.
Wordless but Worthless.

Auntie Lucy.
a L-O-L character.
Fun love-ing, caring, typical.
I just love her.
should catch her latest movie.
I love how the way she said.. " aiyo so embarrassing. "
How the way she love free gifts and stuffs.
how she love to swing her head to the side.
FUCKING FUNNY.

Look at this and look at that.
Found something cool which Jasmine bought from me from New zealand.
Fucking cool.

An Emergency Chocolate.

For immediate relief of : Chocolates cravings, lovesickness, exams pressure, mild anxiety and extreme hunger.
Directions for use: tear open wrapper, break off desired dosage, and consume, Alternatively massage into affected area. Repeat dosage as required until finished. if symptoms persist consult your local confectioner.

COOL Can?!
Nah just funny..
I just post it out of my anxiety.lol

I just found this at my workplace.
Scared the whole shit out of me.
See those blood it vomited.
Yucks and infectiousness.
Infectiousness!
Germs everywhere.
At least, I've the balls to go near it and take a photo.
:D
Kudos goes to my camera.. 2x zoom!

Just got my pay by the way.
Fucking happy.

Case 39

2009-12-03T05:20:00.000-08:00

Watch it, if not you're dumb.
Fucking nice.
Question 12 : Are you scared of the future.
Edward: no?
Lilith : The answer should be yes.

2009-12-01T04:20:00.000-08:00

I'm back.. Have not updated for like weeks.
Time to update.
Form bits to bits and bits to bits.
Let's start from class chalet.

Class chalet. 17/11

My birthday.
A huge number of people wished me happy birthday.
Thank you for that and god bless.
Well met Weixiang and Amy at lot.
Had fun on the way to Chalet at Downtown East.
Farahin and Sarena had already reached there.
Apparently they are typical Singaporeans.
Received a call that made the whole party ruined.
Shall not mentioned that problem.
It'll jeopardize my blog.
Continue on our way.

Saw the red-eyed Farah and the ~~pretty~~ Gorgeous Sarena.
Farahin spilled the beans which she should not have.
Bought little money over there.
Fucking pissed with that.
Didn't rent a bike in the end.
I regretted in the end.
Rain started to pour like one mother-fucking asshole.
However Miss Ang did rent a mahjong set for us to play.
Hurray! but she left the chalet as she had to work the next morning.

Suhaimi playing the mahjong which was like " WOW!"
He is quite a pro although he only won 2 round.

after the mahjong it was time for some swimming.
Fucking cold.
Lips turned white and my body was shaking like a whoo-bobi-la.
Don't mind that language.
After the long tiring swim.
it's time for bbq.
Rather pathetic.
Paid 10 bucks just to eat 6 sticks of satay and 1 part of the squid.
And a bottle of coke.
Marvelous?!

Went inside when Sarena suddenly covered my eyes when i was playing mahjong.

My Stunning cake.
The fucking here who's posting this loves it alot.
chocolate even more. My favourite.

Went for night cycling after the celebration.
Then fell down while cycling. Fuck!
Btw I want to thank Dharman for lending your bike w/o fucking playing it.
SO THANK you.!!!!
Hundred thanks goes to you.

Flaws : Farahin, Linden, Amy, weixiang, Sarena.
What does this means?
Well it means every people have flaws.
We're not perfect.
I think it's a good advice to every people who knew this
but they didn't know to applied it.

Then after night cycling.
Went homed in the morning.

Prom night 2009

Disaster.
It's not a bad hair day but a bad face day.
not much luck in dealing with proms stuffs.
Bored. Shouldn't have go.
Although each and everyone of them wear stunning clothes.
Especially nabilah which really surprise me with her outfit.
Weixiang wear smartly too which we went shopping at Orchard. lols.
I shall not post any photos at Prom.
Simply two reason.

Fugly
Lazy.

Went home sadly and disappointing.

25 november

Thank you Miss Ang and happy Belated birthday.
I know I've been a viscious kid in front of you.
However whatever u did for 4B-erners.
I will never ever forget about it.
I hope you're healthy and remained happy as always.
I'm sure your life will be meaningful as u planned. (:
happy birthday.

Happy birthday to myself. :D

2009-11-16T19:11:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDEN.. ( myself )
I thank those who wished me happy birthday.
such as.

Sarena.
Sarena's loved.
Farahin bte yahya.
Faeka bte kefli.
Jasmine wong.
Weixiang Neo.
Joy loh.
Toh Junjie.
Jiamin tan.
Sheree goh.
There's more to come I'm sure.
It's just only the morning.
Will update soon.

Going to class chalet. :D
I better bring my armor today.

2009-11-14T07:44:00.000-08:00

2012 was a nice movie.
Your should catch it.
tragic, love, comedy.
Everything inside.
Actually it is a living hell.
D:

I hate fate.
Yesterday I went out with andric.
As usual I quarrel with him again.
Btw I dye my hair.
And bought my contact lenses.
My outfit for prom.
Except for shoes and bow.
Idiot.
waste my time.
Class chalet coming.
This week gonna be a very tiring one.

Tanqueraysion

2009-11-11T03:48:00.000-08:00

Jasmine your phone sucks.
The photo is shitty but well-taken.
Kudos to you/us.
Linden is here again to announce that I'm free.
Wee~
O levels is finally finished.
I'm so happy. :D
Went bugis on monday and bought my Prom stuffs.
It's not that perfect but at least presentable.
haha.. marvellous. :D
I shall stop here.
I' gotta lots of things to do.

Random

2009-11-07T03:44:00.000-08:00

Have you ever afraid of someone/things before.
I'm sure you have.
Well I'm gonna tell you my fear.

Well I'm not going to continue my fear.
I'm sure from my picture you've already known.
FUCK!
I can't imagine if I see one of them now.
Hais I hate this fear.

And also I'm afraid of somebody.
I"m not going to say that person.
Anyway some people may have guess it though.
I'm really afraid of that person.
When I see him/her I will run.
When I met his/her gaze.
I'll lower my head.

Beauty and the geek
I saw one of them yesterday.
OMG that girl was really hot and I'm sure most guys would love to have her number.
However her boyfriend was the most digusting toad i ever seen.
I can't imagine why she accepted her?
Maybe he was kind which in fact not because he have that gothic and piercing.
Which it think it didn't boost his you-know-what.
Anyway that girl was a mixed blood which make her even prettier and HOT!

furthermore the guy was shorter than her.
Funny! and the girl was not wearing any high heels btw.
GROSS and GROSS and GROSS!!!!

I would love to see the girl again but not that guy.
My mum also said this. :D
Totally agreed.

Btw i chose Tyra Banks photo because I thought she was pretty hot and gorgeous
unlike Sarena shadi..

Oh well let's go on.

I've been working for 3 little days. and I'm worn out.
btw i've been recruited.

What done is done.

2009-11-04T07:37:00.000-08:00

Finally my O levels are like almost finished.
All my majors examinations had been cleared.
I'm only left with the MCQ combined Science paper 1.
And not forgetting about mother tongue.
Which is like fcuktub.
And I wished all the best to those who are taking those pure sciences.
They are really like so exhausted than I'm.
However not forgetting about this blog of mine.
Let's see what can I post about?

Andric? nope.
He is the best buddy, like seriously.
We are having so much fun and he promised me that he will bring me to clubbing one day. (:

Btw I'd my job interview this afternoon.
For goodness sake, that job is seriously not bad for me.
I hope they will recruit me.
However while I was having my interview.
There's one guy who like a crazy rat, went for the interview also.
Actually i was fcuking tub laughing at him.

Firstly I should take a photo of him to let your see.
Incredible..
His outfit for interview was unreasonable.
A Shinnies with chain around like a snake?
Is he like coming for a interview or a fight.
His hair was absurd.
Is he like showing-off his hair or what?
His face was worst of all worst.
It's like this.

Anyway he look like a spoiled brat.
I think he don't deserves that work.
I hope I won't see him again. FREAK!

Okay proceed, oh where did I get a job from?
okay here the site.

www.google.com
type Jobstreet and the first link will be the site you're looking for.
You need to fill in your details.
If your have any questions, pls ask me.
If your know about this site, it's even better. :D

Btw Job interview tips.

Always smile
Please be presentable ( Bear in mind that both image and body posture must be innocent. :DD)
Wear appropriately
Answer where necessary. :D ( IMPT**)
Don't be nervous and don't give a damn. ( what am i talking about. )

Joy this is for you.
You're a FHM.
Fat Heavy MAMA!
Thank you Joy (:
Credits goes to you.

Pc good news for you.
Someone just say you're cute which in fact was like -,.- to me.

Movies that I'd recently even though in exams periods.
I'm hopeless. -.-

If guys doesn't like Megan fox, seriously they're gays.
Or there are more hotter people you've seen than megan fox.

This movie is not bad which I thought it was like a fucking lame movie
Which ended up i was the one wrong. haha.
P.S Sorry I never call PC cause i know you;re like saving up.

Any short clips for your to enjoy.
Hilarious clips.

The relaxation

2009-10-31T09:55:00.000-07:00

it's been the 5th day of O's levels examination.
I've been totally drained.
Therefore i decided to give myself a little reward.
Went out with Andric, Pinchen and Yuxuan.
We sure had fun with each other.
Look at the photos above, we all look so high.
This is the first time i sing "K" with four guys.
In fact today i really enjoyed myself with these four dudes.
They are fun, loving and good buddies that you can share your feelings with.
Feel like drinking all of the sudden.
We're so high and singing to our fullest.
Especially yuxuan, he sing till like his top of his voice.
I was laughing at his sing.
Credits goes to him.
He sings the best.
The most disgusting one was PC, wan sing like dun wan sing.
Hilarious..
Anyway the most freaking awesome energy was Andric.
He jumps and jumps like in clubbing.
We were all having so much fun.
Then it was about 1043 which is time to go meet crystal at somerset.
She look kinda funny but it's the halloween, how crazy can she be? :D
There so many cosplay and funny halloween characters around.
It's fun..
Took 190 back choachukang and walk home with crystal and Andric.
MY 10 long years friends.
Treasure them as my own.
I'm so happy.. Hope our friendship last long. :DD

FUNNY!

2009-10-26T11:15:00.001-07:00

2009-10-24T20:32:00.000-07:00

1 more day to my O's
Wish me luck people.
Btw I'm abit surprise that other countries have come to view my blog.
LOL nothing much i think.
I love USA though especially Texas/New York :DDD

Dedication

2009-10-24T10:06:00.000-07:00

A post dedicated to him.

Okay not being homo here. Just to talk some feelings.
Firstly I need to thank you.
You're in fact my first and very first best friend who doesn't see me as a freak.
We had never once quarrel before.
In fact, we are both lies in different world.
You're are tall, I'm short.
You're clever, I'm only 20% of your intelligence.
You're kind,trustworthy and many more.
And I'm only 10% of you.
Sometimes I tried taking advantage of you by ordering you around.
You didn't mind.
I was sad that we have lost contact for 8 years.
A total of miserable 8 years until my friends told me they knew you.
I heard you're even the head prefect of that particular school.
you must be doing well now,
Then I felt a knife just stabbed my heart.
A pain that is so fucking pain.
I once tried to contact you yet...
My mum told me she had saw you once and he say you're so tall.
but from my bottom of my heart.
I apologised that sometimes i lied to you.
I apologised I didn't have the courage to admit the mistake before you because
you're so perfect and I'm none.
I thank you for not treated me as gay/sissy or whatever those people called.
Although I knew i only barely known you for a year but you are special to me.
Till now, I only hope that you are doing well now.
I wish you all the best.
Thank you for being my friend, I'll never ever hell forget about that.

The pain I'd suffered is nothing compared to the others.
However one thing i had learn is to ignore,forget and laugh like a insane hell.
to those who are childish people out there who may think that they are fucking good.
Or what? pls think twice before you act.

And also not forgetting my friends who also treat me as a bother or ....
All these memories shall be kept inside my heart and this blog over here..

P.S. Thank you for guiding me (:
God Bless You.

How How's Party :D

2009-10-24T09:19:00.000-07:00

I just cameby to tag some photos.
happy birthday How and I'm pissed at somebody.
No vulgarities D:<
Grrr I can't take it anymore.
FUCKY YOUUUU.
Some niceee.. :D

My life time

2009-10-20T10:26:00.000-07:00

Finally it's time to update on my life and yours.
Feel more days to O's you can say it's the most disgusting week and tough one.
I'm trying to treat O's as a very serious examinations.
Although I can feel the stress inside me but it'll be alright.
You can see it from the picture above..
Let the nature take its course.
Anyway these few week I've been studying with Sarena, my malay friend.
We are best bud..
I don't know to describe her but she is very nice to me and I'm very nice to her.
Unlike some people who are fucking irritating who acts like innocent people.
hate them..
How do elaborate them?
ermm...
Nevermind, the only thing I know is when I see them, I feel like singing lily allen's song.
Forget it.. no point.. Secondary school life is almost over.
Let think straight.. ermm wrong.. I mean look straight.
Okay I'm even fucking pissed now.
My uncle like starting nagging just now.
Asking me why am I not in bed yet.
LAME lah he.
Not in the mood to entertain him.
I realised I got lots of enemy around me. -.-
Sian..
Anyway Let's talk about recent stuffs shall we?

Science Practical.
Ermm How do I put in words.
It wasn't all that tough.
It wasn't all that easy.
It was average, I must say.
Nevertheless I pulled through the test and I'm prepared to move on.
I'm quite disappointed today due to some people.
nevermind, forget and forgive and move on.

Today was a exhausting and fucking hot day.
I'm like the chicken under a hot sun.
Fucking hot, even now I'm still still sweating.
God!
Anyway I had fun with Sarena these few months.
She is just like my dearest sister to me.
She taught me to be brave and more.
We joke and we laugh all day long.
At least i know I'm better than those childish people out there. ( Angelic Smiles.)
Anyway WX asked me whether am I going to class chalet.
I heard that somebody is not going so most likely I'll be going which is a good thing.
wahaha, I can't get over with that person.
First thing- She/He's irritating..
Secondly- She/He's fucking irritating..
Thirdly- She/He's is really fucking irritating.
Her/His laughter is a torture to me.
Anyway She/he is the only person I hate the most so far and far.
Anyway 4 more days to O's level, I'm not going to give up this moment.
I shall strive harder to obtain results for myself.
However I can still blog once in awhile.
it's rather nice to blurt my feelings out here.
it's relaxing..
Btw Thank you Joy and Jasmine for yesterday.
Although the day didn't end up what I wanted.
But I've a great time with your.
Not forgetting Sarena, my best best friend. :DD
Cheers for the friendship.

Alarm clock..

2009-10-20T10:20:00.000-07:00

Sorry I really have to post this video.
It's hilarious.

Terrible magic.( unbelievable)

2009-10-20T04:01:00.000-07:00

Actually I think most of the singaporeans know him.
Criss Angel, probably someone you've heard before.
However I'm not sure whether there's any trick into it.
But it's definitely really magic.
Magnificent.

Exams are coming... :D
Need to work hard. Play less.

here's something

2009-10-18T09:44:00.000-07:00

Hello People, i've nothing to say this time.
Anyway watch this small clip.
it'll freshens you. :D
Hope you like it. :D

I want to cry..

2009-10-15T09:27:00.000-07:00

I really want to cry... SO bad...
LOL... i was ended crying after that stupid chat with Faeka.
Sarena, Amanda, faeka and I was laughing after Faeka's comments about somebody
Shall not mention it.
he said that his face look like a horse.
I was laughing then, that guy really looked like a horse.
haha... Then she said something after that.
perhaps maybe when her wife and him went for a honeymoon.
He will ask his wife to ride on him.
Okay this is the part I laugh until my tears oozed out.
Okay how pervertic we were.
it may not seemd to be funny for you. But it's hilarious for me...
Anyway today I was studying and studying and even more studying..
Morning met jasmine to study.
Completed Physics notes.
Then met Sarena to go to school.
was learning malay throughout.
Met Amanda and Eka at canteen.
Studies together.
Didn't make much progress but I'm determined to did well for O's
Ohya. A good news for me
I got 7th in my class.
LOL!! not bad lah but there's still room for improvement.
I'm waiting for 2012 to come out.
Anyway here's a sneak preview.

There's nothing much nowadays.
Btw there's a slum party or whatever during the 18th of october.
I dunno what's going on but I can't make.
Anybody who are interested can make a research.
Good luck O's candidates.
3 more weeks.

immature acts.

2009-10-13T07:03:00.000-07:00

I read someone's blog just now.
I was really fcuking pissed right now.
What's wrong to save money?
Sometimes i think that he doesn't have the brains or whatever?
He thinks that buying more clothes will make him famous or what?
Speechless lah.
I'm angry at him even though he is my best friend..
I was angry at " Do I have to think of the poor when I buy clothes?"
"There are many kind souls out there to help them..."
Fuck him..
What is meaning behind his words?
The poor deserves that kind of treatment?
Do you really think there are kind souls out there?
There are so many people we need to help?
Instead of saying all this crap, I think you can just shut the fuck up and keep it to yourself.
I know it is your blog and you can write anything and everything out there?
But think twice before even blog about this...
Showing off your coats, jeans and clothes..
instead of wasting that kind of time, why not post something even more interesting?
Discriminating the poor doesn't make you a great man.
I despise you dude.
You're nothing but only know how to spend the money of your parents had earned..
Now i can only wish that in your next life, you'll be landed in that kind of situation.
perhaps you don't have a heart..
Urmmm.. I wondered why am I so agitated about this.
oh whatever, he just pissed me off.
I'm thinking of the people who didn't have enough clothes to wear...
We should be lucky of what we had.
And of course, I didn't mean that we shouldn't buy any clothes.
But the way my friend is spending on clothes is ridiculous.
His closet is as thick as a seven matteress putting together ( exagerating)
Furthermore, his brother had to giv up his space just for his clothes.
Okay maybe I maybe in wrong but I hate the way he posted it.
LAME lah...

Anyway I watched two movies recently.
here they are...

Cloudy of a chance of meatballs.

Surrogates.

Both movies are not bad, and rather interesting.
Who will expect that food will fall from the skies.
and living as a robot in our world..
I don't rather say that it is a must to watch but it is highly recommended.. :D
I don't think i want to post anymore.
Doodles people...

hahaha... LAME

2009-10-11T21:44:00.000-07:00

Cupcakes and more cupcakes..
I want cupcakes.
I'm like having my dnt lessons right now and I'm still blogging.
LAME... I'm like crazy as ever.. laughing like a fucker in the bin.
Get over it, it's the most dumbest act in history.
Weixiang is like doing his revision now. Boring.
How I wish i can be like him concentrate in his studies.
I'm seems can't take the responsiblilty..
Tough decisions I must say...
But however there's one lazy bugger beside me, Jasmine wong Ugly.
Pathetic, she's reading her manga on net.
Even worst, okok
I
Know
I
Don't
Have
The
Right
To
Say
Her
but she hopeless. omg lah.... like whatever.
I'm reading Ashley's blog just now..
I began to have feelings for her because of her personailty.
LOLOL... That doesnt mean that feeling is the feeling of love.
It's almost complicated.
She got the bitchyness inside her.
So what do I say about bitchyness.
COOLLL!!!
It's a good day for passivity -- that is one way to bring success a little closer!
My great energy is better at planning and waiting than it is at making things happen by sheer force of will right now.
Nothing is impossible for me right now.
I'm charging like a bull and charging like a jackass
I thinking twice whether I should post about this but its hopeles ya'know.
I'm cool, she's a fool...
Jasmine just peek at my computer.
She doesn't know any of the word " PRIVACY"
Lame, nevermind.. I'm nuts anyway.
Don't you agree.
Humanity sucks, how i wish i can fly a bird w/o any worries.
Jasmine peek again.
Better sign off right away.. The lesson time is ending soon.
I want to get outta of this school.
Jump like a star, sweeties...
Off to cupcake..
Hope your don't mind the crazy post I'm posting right now.
It doesn't make any sense.
Blah Blah Blah...
I'm funny, you're not.
I'm handsome, you're not.
I'm attractive, you're not...
Hahahahahahahaha sometimes you need to praise once in awhile.
but don't do it overboard..
SHUcks Jamsine take a sneek peek again.
Time to run.. Doodles..

Crayon Shinchan...

2009-10-11T08:22:00.000-07:00

I simply love crayon shinchan.
words can't describe how I like it so much..
However I will still not forgot the creator of shinchan.
I know it's abit too late to say these.
But there is still mysteries about Yoshito Usui death..

Yoshito Usui (臼井儀人 Usui Yoshito, April 21, 1958 – September 11, 2009), born in Shizuoka Prefecture, Japan, )
REST IN PEACE.
Anyway..
Your creation have brought Laughter almost around the world.
I'm sure many people may have cry for you.
Although it's been a month since your death.
But you always be a part of our memories..

Shinnosuke Nohara, 野原新之住 (shin chan)
Misae Nohara, 野原美雅 (shin chan's mother)
Hiroshi Nohara, 野原广志 (shin chan's father)
Himawari Nohara 野原葵葵 (shin chan's baby sister)
and Shiro!!! 棉花糖小白 (shin chan's cotton ball's dog)
Kasukabe Defense Organization 春日部防卫队,
Toru Kazama, 自恋的风间,
Nene Sakurada, 有暴力倾向的妮妮,
Masao Sato, 像饭团的正男,
Bo, 流鼻涕的阿呆...

:D R.I.P
sorry for the late wishes..
damn I feel bad about this..

random thinking inside me..

2009-10-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

We always ask ourselves why are we imperfect?
Why those people are better than us?
Why our life is so unfair.

But none of the above are true.
We are very lucky ourselves..
We've gotta accept who we really are..
Irritating, Idiotic,Intelligent?
Then why people still judge us?
Because they don't like your character, your personality..
Is there any true friends around us?
Yes, Maybe or maybe not.
This is not something we can decide.
I hate those people who can't see the good side of me
and always see the flaw inside..
Those people are only one-sided view creatures.
Yup, you've received many encouragement but none seem to help alot but abit.

Taking HIV kids around us..
Most children with HIV (anyone age 13 or younger is counted as a child) were born to mothers with HIV or got a transfusion of infected blood
. These infections are rare in the developed world.
Blood for transfusions is screened.
Pregnant women are taking antiviral medications.
However, where antiviral medications are not available,
or where blood is not routinely screened, children still get infected.

there are too many random thoughts in my mind.
Too many, how i wish i can blurt everything out but somethings
are meant to hide in the dark...

I hate people who just can't get over their relationship.
It doesn't help you at all...
Get over it, move on with life...

Changed blogskins.

2009-10-09T23:48:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!!!
I have change my blogskins. thank god...

Alive..

2009-10-09T09:14:00.000-07:00

I'll try to keep my blog alive and blah blah blah it goes on...
There's nothing to post about except my life.
I'm a bit sensitive to these kind of things.
Anyway I tried to keep things easy for me.
Work hard when necessary, play hard when necessary.
You've gotta plan for yourself people.
Today was a real bore...
1st lesson: Design and technology.
How can i say?
Basically nothing, we just go through the exams paper.
2nd lesson: History.
I pay attention to Miss sng for just half of the lesson.
Well i was too tired, you can't blame me.
3rd lesson: Chinese.
Draining.... too draining but lucky for me as i was trying to entertain myself.
Admit it, it was just too bored.

Anyway went home alone.. ( sad.. Sareni went home first. )
well I'm gonna meet her after that...
Before that I went for a nice afternoon sleep. HAHA!
I knew I was late but yet I remember I set my alarm clock at 445.
But it ended up 445am. okay fine.. gonna take either way.
I was late again and ended waking up at 545.. haha
I was disturbed by sarena..
I was so dead beat. D:

We both met together and reached school at about 612pm.
Had to sign in... ( a bit lame)
We both reach canteen and i saw weiyi.. Omg..
She seems to be surprise of my presence -.-
I scolded her bitch softly in front of Miss fong.
Crap I didn't know she was there..
Well Weiyi you don't need to punish me anymore, miss fong had already revenge for you.
No offence though. haha juts a joke or take it as a compliment.
I know weiyi does visit and read my post.
A bit honour.. ( ahah.. a sarcastic laugh)
Then after studying with Faeka, Faeza, Sareni and Lindi ( named by Sareni)..
We went back homed..
Went macdonalds with Sarena..
Had a nice chat and washing our eyes with her. ( haah only she know what it means.)
Hom-ed with Sareni :D

Sometimes it is okay to lie in your life.

Ulcersss!!!

2009-10-06T06:33:00.000-07:00

SEE SEE SEE.
My fucking big ulcers.
From two ulcers combining into 2.
Tio toto also not that accurate.
Okay these days are neutral, nothing much to elaborate.
Except that, for god sake people.
Your should take care of your own health.
If you dunno how to take care of your own health during exams.
here are some...

Drink more water.
Eat more plants. ( but that doesn't mean you should just go outside and pluck a leaf and eat)
Rest well.
Stop eating junk, say no to them.!
Do some light exercise, don't tired yourself easily..
Eat some sweets before you study, it helps.

Anyway there's a long way ahead for us.
So just mug hard and pray hard.
God Bless!

Bowling and a word of encouragement.

2009-10-03T09:09:00.000-07:00

Today woke up at 922am. Freaking tired, I was so sleepy.
Should i said fuck? haha
Anyway I prepared myself and went for tuition.
I was the first to reach. Suprisingly.
I thought i was late.
Perhaps not...
I try absorb everything i could during the lesson.
Then i saw weiyi coming in.
Oh dear, what am I'm I going to do?
Should I run or buzz off?
Or but when i saw her entered the room.
I thought she had became older or lethargic.
Or is she suffering from sleep deprived?
LOL.. But anyway I told her not be sad and cheer up.
perhaps the stress is getting on her... No... its US!
I'm so fcuking stress..
I ask her whether if she wanted to go bowling but she rejected.
I asked her to cheer up :3
After tuition, met weixiang for lunch.
And ANJUAN was late again...
oh nevermind, after that we went for bowling.
Ohmigod it is so fun.. I'm so addicted to it.
I got second in place. Amy got first -.-
I almost win her...
I got 3 strike. ohmigod and they have none except weixiang who only got one.
haha I'm so proud of myself.
Time to clap for me ( angelic smiles..)
Anyway after 3 sets of game we went to lot.
But before going lot, we did something stupid and funny.
I shall not embarrased ourselves by saying out.
It was damn funny, we were all laughing like crazy.
Went lot and shop awhile.
hehe went to study awhile too :3
anyway i'm tired now and i shall not blog anymore.
SO TIRED!
Will update photos if I'm not tired :DD

Is things solved?

2009-10-02T05:44:00.000-07:00

I'm just not sure whether things had settle.
Everything is so complicated now.
Today I was so tired yet I'm very energetic during lesson.
I was enthu about it.
Nothing much to say actually.
I'm not suppose to blog also.
Went home on time with Sareni.
Sleeping throughout the whole afternoon.
Okay i admit it I'm pig.
haha fcuking arses.
I'm suppose to go out with Jiamin yet I don't the energy.
But she went to syairah's party. ( sorry dunno how to spell the name.)
Anyway I had fun for the day.
doodles people. :D
I'm so excited about bowling 2moro.
Will update photos ofc. (:

Advices

2009-09-29T08:13:00.000-07:00

Today I bascially regretted going school.
I was lethargic and won't bother more about things more.
Yet there is still a conflict on our class.
Advices
We will be dignified.
Ignore all those negatives effects around us.
Be deaf towards them.
Close one eye if needed.
Concentrate on our goals.
Dun be affected and concentrate on your goals.
Words can't hurt you physically, but emotionally.
You'll just have to be strong.
Sooner or later, they will be tired.
Being quiet and dignified doesn't mean we're defeated.
It means that we're lazy to entertain these childishness.
Concentrate on our O's levels.
Result will prove us and where we stand.
The last man standing is the one control their emotions the best.

Luckily there're still fun things about here and there.
Sarena was complaining about her leg.
And I was complaining the amount of food that I had eaten.
I seriously hate dnt theory, I just catch no balls.
Sad about the result i've gotten back that will affect my prelims overall results.
I'm so dead now because SS had completely drained my energy away.
It's late and I haven't got a clue on how to write Globalization.
No modern essays but only powerpoint slides which only help a little but the
evaluation was difficult to evaluate.
I still haven't finished my dnt homework D:

Hui ci vs Poodles.

2009-09-27T23:55:00.000-07:00

You guys gotta know Huici. Ohmigod.
She's is so famous now in taiwan.
Her jokes are funny even her character.
Some people may thinks she looney or whatever you call her.
But I say that is a gift.
A gift for her to bring laughter for us.
As long as she doesn't kill or burn things.
Those fuckers who criticize her, she doesn't give a damn.
Most people can't do it now.
Your may think I like her or idolize her, but it doesn't matter.
She has lots of fans now.
Not only me. :D
But at least she better than some people. :D

NOW VS THE Poodles..

First questions to Poodle.
How do you feel when someone betrayed you?
How do you feel when people started despise you?
How do you treat True friends?
Do you think you are really true to them?
Do you ever sit down and think for others?
Do you really know your character had caused people to suffer?
All those forgive and forget had seemed to be impossible for your.
I know what am i posting.
Your didn't know what's to feel like in our shoes.
The pain and suffering.
True friendship that we yearn for everyday.
Perhaps just a smile will do.
I must say the poodle is not mature enough.
We maybe backstabbing you but why do we do that?
Have you ever think of it?
Is because of you.
You mongrel!
You fucking mongrel.
Causes so much unbearable pains.
Thinking that forget it can just let the matter go...
Never, I believe in things that you don't.
Hell would be a better place for US!
Why do I say US? Is because your betrayed had turned into hateness inside me.
And of course the others.
I pity every single of your weakness.
Every word that comes out from your mouth may be a deadly weapon to us.
A DEADLY ONE.
You admit that you're a poodle and you like the poodleness inside it.
Rubbish. Pui!
Inside your heart, you are always the winner and we are the losers.
To me we are all losers.
I do hate you seriously...
I detest everything inside you.
You cause troubles for my friends too.
Maybe my friends are aren't true too.
But I believe that we are all playing strings.
So we will know soon who will be strangled by our strings~
Taking away your pain and suffering.
I can only said that water is something that flows.
Soon you'll know the true meaning behind it.
Regret it or not.
Live it your way.
We will pay respect to each other by blood.
because blood is the purest among the elements.

Graduation day'09

2009-09-27T02:03:00.000-07:00

Last Friday was Graduation day.
I wasn't into it at first thinking that it'll be fucking boring.
I even plead with my mum to explain to the teacher in person.
I was desperately fucking detest everything.
Perhaps influence by Jiamin.
She detest schools and many more.
I've a very bad guy lately. Very Bad.
Anyway Graduation day was more fun than I expected.
I was encourage by my friends to participate in the event.
Thinking that everything in my path is disgusting.
I think i shall let the photos do the saying...
Anyway I got something to say.
SORRY MDM MAS.
I bang into her even though she was pregnant.
Ohmigod, a sin!
I felt completely in guilt.

THE PIG GANG!
Ohmigod, The leader is beside me.!
So honour...
there's a ghost behind Sarena and me.!
Watch out for her Arse!!
You know why i looked nervous in this photo?
Because I'm scared of Farah's Arse.

Sarena rmb our dirty little secerts XDThe Three Little Pigs.

Jasmine my mum say you looked smart in that gown.
Basically i vomited out everything after i heard that.

Okay, she's not 4berners.
But she's one of my best buds.

Shwu Boon is so funny in this photo, I swear
(Angelic Smiles.)

Sarena You're nuts.!

In the End

2009-09-26T08:06:00.000-07:00

~~260609~~
I read your blog on onsugar.
It's clearly stated your feelings.
I'm glad that you have become mature, more understanding.
There's nothing we could do now.
Hurt you too deeply.
Hurt your feelings.
Cheat your feelings
Neglected your feelings.
I've been a bad one.
But I've happy memories with you and for that you'll always be my best friend.
A friend that you will be there for you.
I love you as a friend.
I feel like I'm a totally a jerk right now.
Perhaps the affinity inside us had end.
Maybe a "Break" may work between us.
You're very lucky to have friends like Susan and dave around to support you when you're sad.
Perhaps my blog will be spammed because of this. ( a nervous haha )
I think that each time we break, you've grown.
Sheree i can tell you, you're best gf I ever had.
Really and that's the truth.
I hope this relationship doesn't bring you too much suffering.
Let it go and move on.
Just treat it as I'm a dumbass who is nightmare.
Now the nightmare is over, you can have sweet dreams.
Remember this, I'll still be your friend no matter what.
Maybe deep inside your heart, you do hate me for a moment.
And I will do accept that.
And if you're reading this post that is specially dedicated for you.
I sincerly apologised to you.
Sorry Sheree Goh Kunjin.

Mary's house

2009-09-10T08:40:00.000-07:00

Well well what do we got here.
Basically I was late meeting shwu boon and weixiang.
We are supposed to meet at yewtee yet I was still late even though i was living near yewtee.
Embarassed and the things i had caused, I didn't want to complaint much.
Anjuan was also late.
Such a waste.
Today we went to mary's house. Mdm mary.
Omi-god her house was different from what i had expected.
Relaticely clean, she also treated us Sub-way
How nice of her.
THANK YOU MDM MARY!.
I'm so blessed being her student.
Spent about 3 hours at her house just to study math.
Important questions to ask her before the prelims and the O' level.
After that went home to continue my revision.
Actually we wanted to study again but we were all exhausted so we went home to rest.
Taking a rest allow us to walk further.
I think it's important to rest.
make sure all of us should drink lots of water and eat more plants
But that doesn't mean your should go out and eat grass.
Okay nothing to elaborate on.
Doodles.~

An Ice Cream and A Man.

2009-09-08T07:54:00.000-07:00

Today was the science practical examinations.
Well Freaking embarrassed and totally Stupid.
I did something that was so fucking stupid.
Nevermind, it's over. Let's not hope any errors in future.
After the exams, we headed back our classroom to be quarantined.
Wasted 2 and a half hours.
Anyway.... I've a fun time during the quarantined period.
Okay today had a fun time chatting with the pig gang.
Yup I called them the pig gang.
Our leader is Shwu Boon A.K.A FeiZhu.
Well everyone agree to that.
Nah just a joke.
We were talking about a whole junk of things.
From Idols- Michael Jackson- to many things.
A variety of fun things.
After The quarantined, headed back to canteen to do our physics.
In fact prepared...
A lot of things happened along the way.
Anjuan giving ridiculous answer to my question.
Funny and hilarious :D
She was doing so slow until i nearly broke down.
After 3pm, went to look for Miss Fong first.
She was so ahlian and she said " You want die issit?" for 3x...
I actually counted it.
Funny lah, her favourite phrase. (:
I should have one phrase soon to counter her back.
Perhaps something mean {: ( giving that hateful look)
Anyway after miss fong, mr Michael tan was our next target.
He didn't ate lunch before meeting us so instead he took out Ben and Jerry from his office.
An icecream so creamy and delicious.
Mouthful of saliva was dripping from our lips to the paper.
Jealous sia.
We were all complaining about it.
He say he will treat us Swensens if we got a A1 for combined science.
O-migod, That were be my target, I'm determined to get that offer.
Typical singaporeans are like that. ( Angelic smiles XD)
After several consultation, we went homed.
Homed with Anjuan.
She really should wear that Indian costumes that i have specially indicated for her.
Suit her so well :DS
Btw my mum quarrel with my sister which was totally absurd.
Stupid arguments always existed in my family.
Totally!!

End of Post: tanqueraysion

Update

2009-09-02T07:34:00.000-07:00

Came to update what had happened.
Good news people, I've heard that this is renesmee. ( i can't remember the name correctly)
In case u don't who that baby is...
It's edward and bella's baby.
As for today's post..
I shall put it in bullets form so that it's easier to read.

English prelims was today, I was rather sad about SW but i think the paper was okay.
I told something shocking to anjuan ( being forced to -.-)
Trying not to slack and be lazy.
Happy birthday September babies.! ( such as Sheree and many more.)
This few months is all i left to mug hard.
Gotta stop blogging. ( which in fact I'm doing now.)
I detest the person I loved.
Woodlands Ring Investiture is coming. ( which i think I will go)
Prelims had already started.
FORM STUDY GROUPS!
Curse those who think that they had study very hard which in fact not.
Fucking pissed at someone.
afraid of what's coming in future.
I need to brace myself.
I'm afraid of Physics, Combined Humans, dnt ( in fact everything.)
I'm exhausted. ( starting to sleep alot. more than usual)
I'm eating too much. :D ( ya'know)
Hope that the heaven have eyes to see who is hardworking.
I want to restart my life. ( I can't =.=)
My heart is crying.
I want the O levels to end soon.
I hate Teckwhye except the teachers and friends.
I hate those who call names to others based on their character/behavior without knowing their positive aspects.
Disgust immature people.
Gotta learn how to speak nicely to people.
Control my emotions.

I'm done.
I want to live a peaceful life.

Freak out

2009-08-29T09:58:00.000-07:00

Gosh deadline coming soon.
What am I going to do.?
Things changed.
Scared that things might change into something i didn't want to see.
Bear the pain.
Move forward.

Un-balanced

2009-08-26T06:37:00.000-07:00

Watched The Proposal.
I think that this movie is highly recommended.
It a comedy show, and i think that is really very nice.
I watched it with Jasmine.
These few days is really a busy week.

Btw let me start by saying.
HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY!
It's been 2 months...
Furthermore dnt is still driving me nuts.
The deadline is tomorrow i think.
These few days are very boring.
Too boring.
There's nothing i can do.
I shall stop here.

Hate Sandcastles

2009-08-21T10:47:00.000-07:00

I hate Sandcastles.
I'm so fed up, I'm so wild.
I'm so crazy, Everybody thinks that I'm different.
Won't you grow up?
Don't you have feelings?
I will Drag you to hell if i could.
But I can't...

Hate is emotion.
A strong emotion.
As hate and fear grows stronger.
The darkness within you will be revealed.
These sufferings and pain are brought to this world.
Agony, Painful sights are seen.
Darks colours that filled up the sky.
Moon disappeared.
Sun stop giving it's warm.

Crazy today I was with Sarena.
We both have fun chatting about a guy.
OMG!
We both shares secerts.
We are twins.!
Jasmine giving moral support to me.
Faeka talk crap about me.
I know about Linden's bottom.
Stop laughing Faeka.
Books are my life.
I loved reading them.
The imagination in my mind is so random.
I know that this post is confusing because
I can't express my thoughts well with words.
My mind is full of special moments.
Some embarrassed moments.
But w/o these embarrassed moments, I'll not be here.

End of Post : Tanqueraysion

3-Big things

2009-08-19T07:36:00.000-07:00

Today was a very tiring day.
In fact sad news that I got B3 for my chinese O level.
I'm so disappointed by the result I've gotten.
Anyway to those who are still frustrated and sad about it.
Just let it go, look towards to the future.
There's still another chance.
I'm re-taking the Chinese Paper which I was reluctant but why miss the chance.
I also had my English oral today.
Well I think I had done my best and I'll not regret even though I did badly.
This undefeatable spirit which I learnt in band.
Anyway I didn't miss band.
Furthermore, I met Jiamin on the way back.
We agree to study together at 5.
We had fun studying and we went to watched a movie.
Yup " Where Got Ghost?"
Some parts were scary, some parts were funny.
Average movie I would say, 3.5 Stars if i rate it.
Well it is still highly recommended to watched it because it's a singapore film.
:D
Anyway I simply love Shaker Fries. :DD

Thoughts

2009-08-16T10:16:00.000-07:00

Dang another boring day.
Gotta keep things in bullet form.

Prelims are coming and I'm still slacking.
I can still post. ( like WOW?)
I'm still playing online games ( pathetic isn't it?)
I'm craving for knowledge ( Is that a good thing or a bad thing?)
I want to focus on studies. ( which is tough for me ._. )
I'm frustrated about my dnt ( The deadline is coming. )
I've to endure with some negative effects around me.
I want to die if Miss fong keeps saying " you want to die issit?
My life is boring ( too boring ): )
Wanting to treasure my friends around me ( which is difficult for me everytime )
I'm getting fatter ( yes for god sake, finally! )
Hate being the center of attention ( which I always does that ._. )
My appearance is bothering me.

I'm sure your may have some problems.
Come let's share it (:
Btw I have change my skin again.
Pls tell me your new blog links.
Thank'y

Movies

2009-08-14T21:32:00.000-07:00

Well well it's time for another post.
Recently I'd had watched some movies already.
J.I Goe : rise of the cobra
Up
Nice movies... these are movies I had watched.

Some movies preview also..
Girls like it,
Some boys hated it.
It's " New Moon"...

Final destination 4
Available in 3D.
I recommend those who like blood a lot to watch this.

Another vampire movie is out.
And is daybreakers.
Let's just pray that is not NC16/M18 due to violence.

Animated series blockbuster.
Avatar the what airblender.
I'm not interested anyway.

UNBORN OMG I"M GONNA RIP THIS MOVIE APART.

my friend Sarena

2009-08-12T05:31:00.001-07:00

I hope to continue posting even though there are exams going on.
Today my topic is my friend Sarena...
Well it's not a Gossip girl character or whatever.
She's my friend.
Recently she was moody and told me a lot of things which i appreciate a lot.
She really like to cry all day.
It is rare not to see her cry for one day.
Well I gave her some advice about how to deal with her current problems.
Hope she doesn't take it to heart..
Well I also told her my little secret too. (:
She was freaking surprise.
well I told to shut her mouth off too.
Hope she does/promise that.
Not like some other people in my class who is tale-tatter.
Well a new form of vocabulary.
Nah, I don't want to talk about it.
Nowadays it's really stress for me already.
I want to take a break but I can't.
Once I slack, I can slack till next month.
I gotta keep forcing myself till the very end.
I was frustrated these few days because of two things.
One is "DNT" ( it's driving me nuts.!)
another thing was "O LEVELS " ( It's driving me double nuts.!)
Well I'm going to be a chipmunk soon.
Faeka and I still like to joke around.
Today we were laughing at the retarded face.
That malay guy was the topic.
LOL he did something very funny that made us laugh.
Then we kept backstabbing him.
Talking negative comments.
It was fun.. haha...
Today I was also angry at Pinchen.
He and I supposed to catch a movie which we didn't watch in the end.
Screw him up.!
He was such an idiot.
Feel like cutting his hair D:<>